Eclipse

Stages of growing up...

2010-10-24T23:35:00.004+08:00

I came out with this thought a couple of years back but didn't share it with many of my friends... i shared it with Carrot, Catherine, Kok Wee & Winnie recently...

It is an alternative way of viewing stages of life...

The most common way is by a chinese proverb... 生老病死; it means we born, age, sick & pass on...

1st stage: "When we are growing up, family is my everything..."
When we all came to this world, small & delicate... the only ppl we know is our family... we stick closely to them. If they were to leave the house even for awhile, we couldn't hold back our tears and cry like it is the end of the world...

When young, my mother was a full time housewife and i never left her side at all... Until the age of 3+yo, my mum couldn't stand my dad, she grabbed my brother and left the house... it was in my life dat i ever cried out so hard before... my mum is an impt woman in my life and she is the only one still alive out of the top 3... the other 2 are my maternal and paternal grandmothers... the happiest moments of my childhood were time spent together with my mum and her mum... the saddest moments were to leave them and stay with my dad and his mum...

2nd stage: "When we are yet to grow up, friends are more impt that my family..."
As we grow older and able to go out of the house by ourselves, we got to know friends from various places. We start to neglect our family members. We feel dat friends knows me best and we don't need to live with them at all. The best thing is... we can choose whichever friends to go out with but we are not given a choice when it comes to family. It is common for a mindset of a youth to think this way... when we see something new and fresh, we start to put what we have aside...

I lead my secondary, poly and national life life this way... sometimes i hardly communicate with my parents on a daily basis... from visiting my mum on a monthly routine, becomes once every few months... i had so much frens, joined so much activities to enrich myself and study for my exams... very often, i would talk against my dad over small issues... i was so busy dat i even forget to lift my head up to see at the night sky... i was dazzled by the beauty of the night sky and found dat i didn't appreciate it for almost 2-3years...

3rd stage: "When we have grown up, family starts to be more important than friends..."
As our parents grow older and weaker, they need some1 to take care of them... as their child, we ought to take up this responsibility... we can have alot of friends on our life, but we all only can have 1 birth dad and 1 birth mum... once they are gone, they could only stay in our heart and memories...

Also we settle down, got a life partner and have offspring... our child is so small and cute... with so much commitments, we would put priority on family & career over friends... they also have their responsibilities to attend to too...

Many of us would be moving between stage 2 and stage 3 before reaching stage 4... whether when we will be able to advance to stage 3, it all depends on the encounters in our lives... some ppl might not be able to reach stage 3 at all and would jump right into stage 4...

For myself, taking care of my younger sister made me understand that parenting isn't a simple task and felt dat i might have given my parents the same set of problems too... plus my mum with stroke and my dad with cancer... all these events made me advanced to stage 3... now i would meet up my mother once or more per week for a simple dinner... I also stop talking against my dad as much as possible too... i also realise dat i am an average person like everyone else on this world... we were all very lucky ppl to be able to share this piece of wonderful land, sky and sea together... we r brought together by fate to meet and know each other better... and it is a great fortune dat we still have our family with us... there are many ppl being brought to this world, without any kin at all...

Stage 4: "When we have grown old, family or myself is my everything again."
As we age, we grown weak and need some1 to take care of us... very often, it would be our family members... as ppl around us pass away 1 by 1, we would have less frens... we also lack the energy and drive to travel around so much as before, we will be bound within our neighborhood. Right by our deathbeds or funeral, only family, relatives and close frens will be there crying.

I felt it this way when some of my relatives pass away... seeing how both my grandmothers grown older and older day by day, year after year... blamed myself for not showing more love & attention to them when they were still around... it is a wake up call, dat i still can show more love to the reminding family members who are still alive... =D

we came to this world crying, with the rest of the world smiling...
we left this world smiling, with the rest of the world crying...

Check out this great MSN video: Food Notes 上食堂 Episode 1

2010-10-22T09:07:00.000+08:00

Saw this vid from xinmsn...

it is indeed an eye opener for me on premium beef...

ha... all along i tot kobe beef is the top beef & is it a separate class from wa-gyu... i am so wrong...

behold~! matsuzaka beef~!! i'll put in down on 1-of-the-things-to-do-b4-i-die-list

Check out this great MSN video: Food Notes 上食堂 Episode 1

Things dat can depress me...

2010-10-20T20:41:00.004+08:00

Like any1 on earth, behind my usual smiling outlook... i do sometimes and not often get depressed over small issues...

to keep myself feeling being positive, i would always think in this manner. sum up the entire set of problems dat i would encounter in my lifetime divide it by the sum of problems everyone else on earth, then it would be very close to zero.... same goes to my knowledge too... after the division, it would be close to zero...

or i would look at the stars on the sky, to relax my mind... stars r massive bodies but yet they were nothing but a dot on the galaxy... they r so beautiful, but yet they will end up being a black hole... & if u r lucky, u might see a shooting star... my highest record was to see 4 shooting stars within 3hours...

if i am really tired and have the luxury of time, i could really sleep for hours...

i do know some people have other methods to stay positive... eg by comparing their situation with some1 who is in a worse condition. This will make themselves feel better... this method is out of my practice coz i couldn't get pass my consciences for doing this...

The top 4 things dat can really depress me (ranking from most top least):
1) Love
2) Moral values
3) Money
4) External factors

Love is indeed a death trap for many ppl... so many famous ppl in history has lost alot of things (empire, title, money, reputation & own life etc) over love... Yet love can be a wonderful thing... i guess ppl who control their emotions well will triumph over love...

For myself, I am still a loser to love at the moment... to me, love is like a dream... once u wake up... u will find urself no longer in love anymore... then u will need to go back to dream again soon... it is always my habit dat i would choose to step out of love once i know dat i am in the wrong field...

Moral values set by myself usually prick me less deeply than love but it happens more frequently... every actions we all do...(eg telling a lie, hurting some1 or falling in love with the wrong person etc...) i would review it with my own moral values... this is called the "3-mirrors" in Confucianism... to review myself, others and surroundings... using the past & present experiences to manage my future... setting directions right by the start of each day.... then review at the end of it...

Money... the root of evil & greed grows on money... i always set aside a sum of money to prepare for rainy days from each payroll... the surplus will be spent to indulge myself... this factor has not been a major problem to me since i cleared off my bank loan for my tertiary loans...

External factors... in fact, they work internal for all of us... they exist as food or drinks... i would call them as drugs... stimulants or depressants...
Chocolates (Stimulant)... like sweets, it can make us happy... i have tried to consume alot of chocolates in a day before, then the next day without it... i felt like a part of me is missing... so moderate consumption should be fine... btw, it is also an anti-oxidant, it can help to slow down aging process...
Alcohol (Depressant)... it can make people high and happy, but if u sleep over it... u might get hangover (headaches or stirring stomach). Also imagine u last rmb dat u were at the top of the world last night, then u woke up seeing urself back to ground level. This feeling do suck, making a person lifeless... Depressants would slow down some body functions of the body. On a severe case, it will give suicidal thoughts to the consumers...

if i ever see me walking out of u, dun be too shocked or surprised... i just need the time to sort myself out... but if it is period longer than 2-3days, it is either i 4got abt u (Ooops~!) or i am trying to avoid u (this means u haf hit on at least 2 of the toplist dat will taunt me)... i guess this is me all along...

i always feel dat depression is the 1 of the fuel for anger... so isolation would be the best approach for myself... b4 i do anything dat i would regret after that...

Toilet habits...

2010-10-18T18:03:00.002+08:00

-Warning: do not read this while having consuming any food. Do it at ur own expense-

Today is to share some "motion" stories...

Let's start with a question: We often use knives to cut meat, then what can we cut by using meat? To be revealed in the end...

1) Toilet bowls...

The sit or squat toilet bowls r the most common ones left in modern cities nowadays... of coz, in Singapore & most countries...

sit-on bowls has gain more popularity over the squat ones... it is considered more comfortable and for some reasons, most ladies prefer it...

as for me, i would prefer the squat bowls...
first, i feel that it is better dat i dun haf any contact with the toilet bowl as much as possible... most Singapore guys less considerate over public properties... i do see urine or unknown stains on the toilet seats...
second, in squatting position, i am able to use little pressure to force the projectile out from the launcher... also the splash effect of the water wouldn't get in contact with my 2 cushioning...

2) The output...
According some people, the appearance of the waste is a clear indication of our body conditions. Hard & small ones... like pellets usually mean lack of water intake, though the urine color & frequency of clearing ur waste can also show dat...
Watery & soft... like paste... a clear indication of food poisoning or sensitive bowels... i would spend the time thinking where it could haf gone wrong while squatting...
If it floats, means u been eating a fair share of fibre over meat... this is a good sign too...
If it is dirty green, it means u r too stressed or tensed up... try to relax & enjoy life alittle...
There are ppl will look at the condition abt their waste & decide what kind of food they will consume for that day...

3) Washing your hands...
Most ppl tend to wash their hands after they r done & some even didn't bother... some common excuses r "i 4got", "save time", "save water" etc... might as well save the time or 4get abt going to the toilet... for me, very often i would wash my hands before & after clearing my bio-harzard...

4) Time to do it...
For my mum, she says it has to be done everyday morning then she will shower after that... to her waste of ytd must be cleared at the start of today & also we will be able to accept today's food better...
my brother practices it too... i'm the odd 1 out... coz i like to sleep till the last minute... haha... usually i would do it after a meal... if u ever see me smiling brightly after going to the toilet, most likely i had just done the big one... feeling lighter with less load to carry around... it is a blissful joy to me...

Btw, the answer to my question is feaces. Explanation: We will use 2 rectum muscles to cut long feaces off... muscles = meat =)

Do u know Chinese & Japanese will use big or small one to define the activities, so that we would let our frens know roughly how long they need to wait & avoid the "live firing" zone as much as possible...

There is a old chinese saying... loud fart... mean usually stinks, but a silent fart... stinks like hell...

Journey to the West... the 80s...

2010-10-16T22:48:00.002+08:00

Saw this on youtube today...

brought back so much memories of my primary sch days...

the lyrics didn't make any senses to me when i was much younger... haha...

For those who dun understand mandarin, there's the english translation...

Btw, this version dat i shared is not by the original singer... coz this version comes with the best quality...

Where is the Way? 敢问路在何方？
Lyrics
You're carrying the luggage,I'm leading the horse
Welcome the sunrise and pack off the sunset glow
Stamp the rough roads flat and make them wider
Overcome the hardships,then walk on
Go on
From spring to winter year after year
Go through the joys and sorrows of life
Where is the way?
The way is just under the feet
Where is the way?
The way is just under the feet

I feel that this song gives positive energy to me...
even if roads r rough, we will make a way out of it...
it is telling us... regardless how long it takes, we have to go on...
the right way is just right over our feet, if we want to move on...

Stay positive... & a way will be right ahead for u...

Thoughts of the day...

2010-10-15T21:01:00.003+08:00

"The best parent is the 1 who cant love their children anymore...
The best child is the 1 who cant love their parents anymore..."

I got 1st part of this thought from my mum... she still misses my grandma alot even though my grandmother has passed on 5years ago... to my mum, my grandma is the best mother in the world... while to me, my grandma is the best in world also... she is my number idol when it comes to principles of life... she taught me alot & i learnt alot from her too...

I also felt it from my niece and nephew who lost their mum 4yrs back... to them, my sister is the best mother in the world... but if my sister is still alive today, she might be nagging at them everyday... so both of them might not feel the value of this statement at all...

As for the 2nd part of this thought... i got it from my father's mum, my paternal grandma... she's 1 of the fiercest woman i ever came across in my life... canning sessions by her once every few days during my childhood is a normal routine for me...

The most softest side of her came to my mind was when she knew that his only daughter has passed away... she stayed in her room and cried alone for 1 whole week... ever since then until the day she passed away in 18 Aug 2000, she would still mentioned her memories abt my auntie, her only daughter...

According to my uncle and dad, my grandma beats up my auntie often when my auntie is young... to my grandma, she always put boys over girls like most traditional chinese families... yet she suffered so much over the dead of her daughter...

it does hurt my heart when i always blamed her for beating me up when i was young... maybe that is her way of loving me... she wants me to be a useful person in life... yet i was so wrong about her...

Cruelty to animals...

2010-10-15T15:34:00.006+08:00

I saw this photo on my fren's facebook wall today...

This pic has stirred a great amount of disturbances on ppl's reactions... i saw some ppl's sharing the picture on their blog & wanted to trace these 2 guys out... lots of ppl scolding and insulting them too... all sorts of cruel punishments were proposed...

After seeing all the reactions... i smiled... ppl made too much assumptions by just a picture...

i felt dat maybe this picture could have been taken very long ago, by now these 2 guys could have become adults or elderly by now... or maybe this picture is photo-edited...

Then... i start to see this whole issue from another angle... it pinches me to see dat our society still lacks forgiveness for these 2 guys...

Yes, I do agree dat it is ok to grab these 2 guys out... but improper punishments would not undo what they have committed... a counseling session or social service work order might be more appropriate...

Besides... i believe most of us could have done an evenly or worse action than this b4...

For my case, when i was much younger... (hey, i'm still young ok? =P) i would catch insects & kept them till they die off...

Another case of mine, i would go to a big drain near my home to catch small fishes & crabs... sometimes i would feed my catches to my terrapin at home... there's a thrill to see my terrapin gets excited over food...

these r considered as hobbies by current norm... but if we were to take a step back & see these acts from another angle, isn't this considered as cruelty to animals too?

We, humans, has committed far more cruel acts than this before...
- Chinese drinking sharkfins on special occasions...
- Japanese massive killing of dolphins and whales...
- KFC cruelty to chicken before slaughtering them...
- Korea is farming dogs as a food source...
- Animal fur production in China...
- Foie gras production cruelty by Europeans
This list can really go on & on...

Everyday on average 25 species are extinct, most r caused by the changes in their environment... & wanna guess who changes the environment ?

Let's see this pic from another angle...
if it is a fish that they r holding, isn't it also cruelty to animals with intention?
if the 2 person inside is a close fren or kin, will the viewers able to stay consistent with their comments?

Of coz, I am not encouraging such acts to be cruel to animals... but it tickles me off when the pots may be calling the kettle black...

Here's a funny talkshow by 1 of my favourite comedian... George Carlin abt "Saving the Environment"

A weird dream... a lesson learnt from it...

2010-10-14T22:21:00.003+08:00

I dreamed of this last night... after i woke up... several thoughts cloud my mind...

-dream-
It was the last night at a chalet, everyone left except for me & another fren will be checking out the next day...

Something cropped up for him & he needs to handle it... so he left & promised that he will be back...

After a long wait, i noticed dat it was getting rather late & he was not contactable via handphone...

I thought dat he might haf played me out & i dozed off in the living room as i wait...

The morning came and i woke up... i checked my handphone...

To my disappointment there's no messages from him...

Next i went to the open the door and to my surprise, he sat down there alone by himself shivering... he said dat he's feeling very cold & hungry...

I asked, why didn't he wake me up...

He replied, becoz he came back pretty late, knew dat i'm very tired and dun want to disturb me...

My heart softened totally & loss for words... & pat on his shoulder with a smile...
-end of dream-

When i woke up, i felt really bad for my actions in the dream... but fortunately, it is only a dream...

i blame the me inside the dream for doubting the fren... i should be worried abt my fren's safety when he is not contactable... yet i chose to wait till i dozed off...

the fren in the dream... volunteered to stay with me while the rest left... & put my comfort at his own expense... he is indeed a worthy fren...

Putting dreams aside, dat fren is some1 dat i know i can trust alot in real life..

I must be silly to get depress over a dream... but if it really happens to me in real life... i don't think i'll be able to forgive myself...

This dream kinda reminded me of 2 chalet sessions; last month & 3yrs back...

coz it happened at the same place... the layout is the same chalet i went last month... while a similar incident happened 3yrs back

i might haf reacted this way in the dream coz on the last night, a ger was supposed to come back to stay over the last night with another fren & me... we trust dat she will be back, coz she left a set of clothes at the chalet...

when it got late, she was totally not contactable via handphone... we got worried abt her & even tried to contact her boyfriend... as we knew dat she was out with her boyfren...

without much leads, we all gave up... coz none of us know where she lives... plus she's with her boyfren... if they r in trouble, either 1 of them could easily contact us...

the next day, we saw her online in the game... so we knew dat she's safe... she also didn't bother to explain anything for her act... she was already an adult yet behave in such manner..

it was quite an irresponsible act to commit... coz she really got us worried abt her...

The pencil & the eraser...

2010-10-14T22:18:00.001+08:00

I sharing this note from a guy called Lai Jun Wei... a very beautiful & meaning msg...

Pencil: I'm sorry
Eraser: For what? You didn't do anything wrong.
Pencil: I'm sorry cos you get hurt b...cos of me. Whenever I made a mistake, you're always there to erase it. But as you make my mistakes vanish, you lose a part of yourself. You get smaller and smaller each time.
Eraser: That's true. But I don't really mind. You see, I was made to do this. I was made to help you whenever you do something wrong. Even though one day, I know I'll be gone and you'll replace me with a new one, I'm actually happy with my job. So please, stop worrying. I hate seeing you sad. :)

I found this conversation between the pencil and the eraser very inspirational. Parents are like the eraser whereas their children are the pencil. They're always there for their children, cleaning up their mistakes. Sometimes along the way... they get hurt, and become smaller (older, and eventually pass on). Though their children will eventually find someone new (spouse), but parents are still happy with what they do for their children, and will always hate seeing their precious ones worrying, or sad.

"All my life, I've been the pencil.. And it pains me to see the eraser that is my parents getting smaller and smaller each day. For I know that one day, all that I'm left with would be eraser shavings and memories of what I used to have..."

This is to all the parents out there...

It's been awhile... 8yrs...

2010-10-13T19:55:00.003+08:00

Finally got a chance to meet up with Dennis today for high tea + dinner... he hasn't changed much in term of appearance & nature... both high tea & dinner were recommended by him...

we had high tea at K ki... it sounds totally like Cake in Japanese (ke-ki; ケーキ)... i believe dat how the owner come out with the name of the store ba...
(http://www.facebook.com/group.php?gid=217143653786)

their specialty is in cheese cake... light & soft... it goes well with tea/coffee... i rmb only seeing strawberry, passion fruit, chocolate & plain flavors today...

their cakes comes with weird names too... eg: a champagne mousse with wild strawberry centre cake is called Emily... i wanted to try dat but Dennis ordered a similar coconut mousse with passion fruit-flavored version called Kinabaru... it is still quite nice for a moment i tot it tasted like mango, i guess dat is Dennis's favourite cake ba... coz he ordered 1 for himself & another for me...

we chat abt alot of stuff... i refrained from asking abt his ex-gf, Jiale... & i'm glad he is happy with his current gf who been with him for 5yrs already...

Stay happy, Dennis...

It's all about eggs...

2010-10-12T16:39:00.003+08:00

Recently... my topics with a couple of frenz r all abt eggs... good eggs & bad eggs... which side do u belongs to? I bet most of u chose good rite?? well done... u haf admit that u r an egg... haha... for me, I would say... no, i'm neither... :P

At tampopo with Linus & Chris, we discuss abt the eggs they had served with their ramen... it is nice... lol... the white is harden while the yolk is very soft... Linus revealed the secret ingredient... vinegar is added to the water to boil the eggs... but beware, overcooking will lead to sour eggs... after it is done, the shell is removed & the eggs r soaked in dark soya sauce... i haf yet to try but soon, i will...

Over facebook, I have a chat with Bernard... he mentioned that he dislike century eggs... then we came to discuss on how century egg is made... The secret ingredient in this case is earth akaline, typically calcium hydroxide... it will break down the proteins inside to gives some favours compounds & ammonia... It was believe that traditional methods uses horse urine to prepare century eggs... so I believe Bernard dont really like the ammonia or the small protein compound... plus he's not really into seafood... which also has small protein compounds too, if it is not fresh...

I did a further read up on wikipedia & found some interesting facts abt other eggs...
1) To make tea leaves eggs... no tea leaves were used except spices...
2) A whole salted(370mg) & century egg(320mg) has a cholesterol level higher than our daily intake lvl (300mg/day) . A chicken egg is abt 210mg... However, some nutritionists believe that our human body don't really absorb the full cholesterol...
3) A good tea leaves egg... the eggs r soaked in the "tea"-brew for 2 days... so I wonder y they dun wanna remove the egg & soak them in like soya eggs...
4) To enhance the shelf-life of eggs... other than keeping them in the fridge... u can store them with their pointed-end facing downward, while the round-end facing up...
5) Most of the cholesterol & fats-soluble vitamins r in the egg yolk, while the water-soluble vitamins r in the egg white...

For myself, I dun like to consume the egg yolk if it is harden & fully cook... i dun really enjoy the powdery feel & the dryness...

A trick that works too well...

2010-10-11T19:34:00.005+08:00

Recently I played a trick on 1 of my frens... Carrot... & it worked too well & the outcome was too unexpected... lol...

Well, it is nothing new that I always play tricks on frenz... especially my sister is 1 of the top victims... but beware of her... i imparted many of my tricks on her... she might 1day turn it against her frenz...

Alrite back to Carrot... he was mesmerizied by a recent Indian film... 3 Idiots... it is indeed a very good movie... 1 of the best so far... he shared it on facebook and even tried to convince me to watch it too over msn...

So I watched it too... an evil plot came into my mind... the movie kinda ended happily with the 3 best frenz and the lead's gf walking away...

Also the movie is quite smartly arranged together from a couple of jokes & filled with alot of surprise elements...

I felt that i could turn this movie's plot plus Carrot's curiosity & interest for this movie into my favour... by setting a simple trap for Carrot...

I went to Carrot's facebook page & post a comment, "oh... did u guys watch until the part after the credits & sub-titles r out?"

Also i need to be sure that there isn't anything after the credits too... so I did a check on it...

This film is an Indian language film, so there's a very much higher tendency that most Chinese will just skip it...

Based on my statement... it will surely stir up Carrot's curiosity...

& it works~!! Carrot replied, "what happen after that credits n subtitles?"

When I received an alert on my hp, I couldn't help myself from laughing away... I held myself back & decided not to do anything... expecting Carrot would go deeper into my trap & check it out himself...

Not long later... Carrot made another comment & laugh even harder... "zzz u super kajiao again. nth at the back la!"

It is not the 1st time, Carrot fell into my traps... HAHA...

Unexpectedly, Carrot told his mum that a fren said there's something after the credits... Carrot's assumption got him wrong... lol... i only check if they watched until the part after the credits r over... poor Carrot's mum also fell into my trap...

Carrot got a big heart... I know he will surely laugh it off also... but I'm not sure abt his mum... I felt bad abt it...

seeing Carrot falling for my tricks is fun~!! coz he knows that I'm a trickster... so he will be always on his guard... & it would be a greater challenge for me each time...

Here r some tips on how to trick/surprise ppl:
1) do it when they r at their weakness... of coz not when they r about to undergo a mental breakdown or helpless moment... do it when they r tired or let their guard down...
2) knowing your targets well will be an advantage... know their likings, habits or things that they do often...
3) keep it as a low tone... the less ppl knows or u need the better it is...
4) behavior normally...
5) always give mixed signals to confuse your targets...

Here r some NOT or pointers to be careful of:
1) Never hurt ur target physically or emotionally on a long term... the aftermath effect should be lots of laughter together... forge good memories...
2) Always consider whether it is safe to play the practical jokes a few times b4 execution... a sudden shock attack is never good for the weak-hearted...
3) Never place ur targets on any situation that u dun wan urself to be in...
4) Never make use of ur victim's love & emotions for u...
5) Never keep ur victims in the dark for too long... the sooner u can uncover the truth... the better it is... if u keep ur victims in the dark for too long... their imagination may go wild, negative emotions may grow...

With that I'll end here with a take-home msg...
Practices do make perfect... but a moment of folly may lead to a lifetime of regrets...

& an mtv "Aal Izz Well" (All is well)...
to mark my victory over Carrot... plus a sincere apology to his mum...
In the 3 idiots movie, saying "All is well" to ur heart... would help to calm urself down...
it is a gd film... catch it =)

An old fren found~!!

2010-10-05T05:03:00.003+08:00

today is a great day... eh... ok... nite for me... to be able to find a long lost fren who i din keep touch for 8yrs... he's 1 of my greatest buddies from spsu... maybe my best even fren in SP...

earlier i was surfing the net and saw a diablo vid... then Dennis Hu's name came into my mind... it's not dat he looks like diablo but it was 1 of the many computer games dat both of us always play together...

so i did a facebook search & found a couple of Dennis Hu... then 1 very Dennis Hu stands out coz we got 7 mutual frenz...

as i probe in deeper... woohoo... he's really the Dennis Hu dat i'm been looking for~~~ the feeling is just amazing, it is like remembering a missing piece of a long lost memory...

it's been 8yrs, since both of us last met by chance at Shaw towers... until today, whenever i would pass by Shaw towers... i would peek into the old LAN shop spot and recalling the memories Dennis Hu, Junyang & I shared 1 decade ago... also i would look into the snack store where I last met Dennis Hu with his ex-gf...

i 1st got to know Dennis Hu right outside SAC exit towards foodcourt 3 thru a common fren Karen Ho, in 1 of the evenings back in 1999. Sounds scary to u guys rite? I could rmb the actual location and rough time where i 1st met quite a couple of my frens even till today... dun believe it? u can try me :)

then i slowly got to know him (his nick is usually LoveFool) better thru #spsu channel in mirc... we got closer by playing games like Diablo2, AOE3, counterstrike etc together with Junyang. Regardless of whichever games, he always stand an upperhand... he is the very 1st pro-gamer i ever got to know... which is y my impression of him is so great... Moreover, his expression and loud voice would make any game even more enjoyable...

i still remember both of us would take bus from SP to town together... then i'll turn his bag inside out & zip it back... he would just tolerate my foolish & childish acts with a warm smile... so i would be guilty and restore his bag to the original state...

there was once both of us plus Junyang sneak out of an SPSU camp to Shaw to play games. After we got back, we got reprimanded by the in-charges of the camp for not setting gd leadership examples for the juniors... those were the days... haha...

sadly... when both of us r in yr3... we both got busy with our final yr projects and didn't meet up as often... while he got attach too...

after we both left SP and i was enlisted, i met him & his ex-gf again at Shaw towers by chance and we chat for awhile... & dat was the last time i met him in 2002...

thru these 8 yrs, memories of him would still come back into my mind... i tried to ask a couple of common frens abt his whereabouts, but it was fruitless...

it's a great night for me, like a dream come true... :)

time to end my entry with another song... haha
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SchfIEv1kMc&feature=related

Priority

2010-10-04T08:29:00.005+08:00

Recently, I'm been placed on a situation which I am quite unhappy with the arrangement made. Here it goes...

A close fren of mine, H will going on an overseas trip for 4months soon. About 1+ month ago, I have arranged with H that we will meet up on a day b4 he flies off.

H was worried that his church frens might ask him out for dinner before his cell grp on the very same day. After giving much consideration for his family and church frens, we have agreed that I will take his morning and afternoon slot for that day.

We decided to invited J & Z into the meet up too. The initial plan was to go for ktv but 4 of us went for 1 recently. Just a few days ago, we discussed and agreed to go for cycling instead.

Then ytd, H just pop a msg thru msn that he couldn't make it for our pre-arranged cycling trip. At the same time, I was reading his blog entry and saw that he had later agreed with his church frens for lunch, which clashes with our meet up. The time stamp on his entry was 5+pm and he msg me at ard 8+, which shows his lack of urgency...

Discomfort starts to shake my senses... after all, our appointment was made first way back a month plus away and gave consideration for his church frens... I was also unhappy that H failed to check whether Z, J and I before H gave his word to his church frens... I couldn't help to think that his church frens comes with a higher priority than 3 of us...

I questioned H, y he didn't push the lunch appointment away...

H replied, his church frens will be busy for church activities dat evening... and he's very sry...

Then H added, if he could meet up much later in the afternoon after his lunch appointment...

On my side, I had also made an appointment with 2 frens of mine on that evening and I had to push it away...

Meanwhile, I proposed to H that we got to check with J & Z for H's new proposal... while I reluctantly try to cancel off my evening plans...

After J & Z were added into the msn chat, H described his situation and he's very sry abt it.

Fortunately, J & Z accepted it willingly.

As for my side, 1 of my frens wasnt too happy with my withdrawal and I tried to describe my position better to him... afterall, H will be leaving SG for 4 months, so H will be on a higher priority...

It isn't the first time that H has put me in such situation where I felt that I'm been given a lower priority... A movie outing was a good example... He was given a pair of free tickets and he agreed to bring me along... just a day after our agreement, he changed his mind... & it happened again...

After pushing my evening appointment, I went back to tell H off. Placing J and Z in an awkward situation... i see a need to, becoz i felt dat it may happen again if all of us gladly accepted his proposal... H's reply is still he's very sry abt it...

Before I wanted to go any further, J msg me on another window and opened my views to look at the situation from another angle... so I took a turn and accepted H's proposal... btw, I had already rationalized my emotions, if not, I wouldn't have agreed.

As I move on to the next step to re-confirmed the details for the newly confirmed timing suggest by H. H broke in and said he's leaving the conversation and he left... Just when I wanted to ask if he will still be going for his cell grp later in the evening... I feel that it is a rude act to do...

I start to wonder have I done the correct thing to push away my own pre-arranged evening appointment with my 2 other frens... will both of them also feel the same way as I do... they could have also felt that I placed H as a higher priority than them... sigh...

Other than very sry... H had nothing much to say... Disappointment is all I felt...

Before I end here... here's a nice song....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AAWqnA8PdcY
coz other than Sorry,sorry, I don't understand the rest... Hope that u guys be able to catch the humour... ha~~

Review for 2009 & Resolution for 2010

2010-01-07T22:14:00.004+08:00

Reviews for resolution for 2009

Resolution for 2009:
- Try to stay healthy with less MC for work (Failed)
- Will lose extra weighs in a healthy way with regular exercises (Pass)
- Complete clearance of my study loan with a total of ~3.4k left (Pass)
- Travel to Hainan Island to visit my grandparents' homeland (Target 2010) (Pending)
- Travel back to Belgium again after 10yrs... (Failed)
- Go Batam to shop & for spa (Failed)
- Settle down with a stable relationship (Failed)
- Continue on to learn (Pass)
- Save at least SGD$15k (Failed)
- To commit myself with at least an 1hr of swimming & jogging every week (Pass)
- To keep in touch with frenz dat i dun get to meet for a long time (Pass)

Long-term goals:
- to persuit a masters in chemistry, likely overseas (Target yr: 2013) (In progress)
- cherish my family & relatives (In progress)
- to stay happy & able to make others happy too (In progress)

Significant events in 2009
- Job switch, finally stopped working shift
- Completed Standard Chartered Singapore Marathon 2009 (42.195km) on first attempt
- Took part in Fun on foot 2009
- 1st ICT completed, 9 more to go
- To get rid of tummy fats... haha

Resolution for 2010
- Completed Nike Human Race, Sundown Marathon and Standard Chartered Singapore Marathon 2010
- Take part in Fun on Foot 2010
- To save sufficient money for my overseas masters (Target amount: at least 20k)
- To be healthy and fit
- To have dinner with mum at least once every fortnight. If i were to go for my masters, I might not be able to see her for a few years
- To be a more goal-driven person, less of an emotional person

Long-term goals
- To obtain a masters in chemical-related fields (Target yr: 2011 onwards)
- To be a polytechnic lecturer
- cherish my family & relatives
- to stay happy & able to make others happy

Hearing Loss...

2009-01-20T06:48:00.003+08:00

during my pre-employment check up last yr... i found out dat I got partial hearing loss... and in very quiet areas, especially in lift... i'll hear an "eeeeeee" sound from my left ear... Sometimes i will feel some pain inside my left ear...

as far as i can remember i fell down at the carpark below my block when i was in pri 2 and i earned myself 9 stitches... according to my mum, i was quite lucky as any deeper the breakage goes will damage the nerves linked to my ears and will result in hearing loss. I was told to be more careful and not to get the same spot injuried again...

when i was in still secondary sch, i will haf problem sleeping at night... so the remedy is to leave the radio on while i sleep & i am able to rest much better... only till my final year in NUS, i start to notice dat my earing power is getting worse...

i tried acupuncture and traditional medicines last year, it only helped to reduce the intensity of the sound and the pulsing pain. in the end the acupuncturist suggest me to try to seek a specialist doctor...

after a consultation in NUH last week, they did ear blockage and audiometry tests on me. There isnt any blockage and the hearing loss is double confirmed...

the doctor inserted a probe into my nose and it isnt any abnormality... the feeling of a probe in the nose is indeed very weird and ticklish... i got to use my mouth to breathe while doing the test...

he concluded dat the damage may be from my brain or the middle region of my ear... and i got to do a brain scan by end of next month... despite so much uncertainties and doubts, i got to stay calm & focus in order to search for the light in the dark...

i believe dat a gd way to start is to read more abt ppl with the same problem as me... also at the same time is to keep a healthy mind & body...

Keeping fit records...

2009-01-20T06:42:00.002+08:00

1st week of Jan: Swimming (2) & Jogging (1)
2nd week of Jan: Swimming (1) & Jogging (1)
3rd week of Jan: Swimming (1)...

1 full year of service in Schering Plough

2009-01-07T19:55:00.002+08:00

Woohoo.... 7 Jan again... time flies... the last 7 Jan i had, was my 1st day at work in 50 Tuas West Drive...

i am still quite happy with my job even though it requires me to do shift work... especially end of each month... keke...

though i worked for quite some time le... i hardly got any savings till this date... i bought too much things to improve on the quality of life to make up the loss during my work... plus i'm paying the utilities bills for the house & some loan my bro took from me...

also wateva balance i had, will be used to repay my study loan... last yr alone... i am able to clear ~SGD$10k of it... 3.5k more to go...

i am hoping to get converted to be a perm staff or find a stable job... especially the times is bad... by the time my contact expires... it will be worse... & it will be bad if i would go jobless during dat period...

i felt either i'll still stay on my job & start saving when my bank loan is fully cleared... or find a perm job elsewhere... i shouldnt be waiting and get slaughtered on the next 7 Jan...

Summary of 2008... Resolution in 2009~!!

2008-12-31T03:06:00.014+08:00

Woohoo... last day of 2008 le... time for a records of happens in this yr...

this yr... is indeed better than 2007... but i hope it will be better next yr...

Career:
i am glad dat i have almost completed 1 full year in my current company, Schering Plough, as a Quality Control Chemist...
- shift work is indeed tiring & i fell sick on at least once every 2 months... I took a total of 4 MCs & cover 4 another days with my leave. If not, I would haf took 8 days MC...
- also lost a total of 10kg and managed to gain 5kg back... lol...
- it is a 2-yr contact & i'm left with 1 yr balance. Even though many of my colleages felt dat my chances of being converted to perm is quite high... but i still got some concerns especially with the current market status...

Cool items I bought this yr:
- LG KS20 phone... after using it for 5 months, i decided to trade it in... (Bad investment)
- 16Gb iPhone (Black)
- Sony Cybershot T700 (Silver, black is out of stock~!!)
- PSP slim 3k (Black)
- crocodile wallet (black)
- zinc bag which so much problems... sighz... (Bad investment)
- Picard leather bag (black)
- high back polyureathane chair (black)
- My 2nd diy PC with quite gd parts and softwares, dat cost me near SGD5k (Black casing)
- samsung washing machine, so dat the old one can finally retire after serving my family for almost 20yrs (Silver, coz dun haf black... lol...)
fyi: black is not my favourite color... but it is 1 of my well likes colours... my favourite is purple... red, orange, white, blue, black & green... r the colors dat i like...

Major twists:
- I tried to quit maple twice... it didnt work the 1st time, so i decided to resort to firmer & underhand measures to ensure dat i dun go back or not being welcome dere anymore. it's been 5 months already & it is working so far... after quitting maple, my social life starts to pick up again... also partly becoz of my mum, i decided to quit maple... but mum, if u happen to read this, will u quit playing mahjong almost everyday for me? :(
- I applied for quite a couple of credit cards... POSB everyday, DBS American Express black card, UOB-Singtel, Citibank SMRT, Citibank master(bad choice), Standard Chartered Visa(bad choice) & DBS Live fresh Visa(bad choice). Credit cards r gd is u r able to pay off ur bills when pay comes. They gives rebates & discounts too... also they gives reward points also. MY favourite 3 are DBS AMEX, UOB-singtel & Citibank SMRT...

Relationship:
yes yes... i'm been single for 11yrs of singlehood already... but my decision is still firm as b4, so long as i dun clear my bank loan. i will not get myself into any relationship... like any other man, i do haf a dream gal... a twist of fate landed me in the same company as her... but after a few months, she resigned for a better prospect which offers her a perm job... based on the current situation, her choice is wise... i am such a fool... i agreed to meet her up for lunch 1day but i overslept... the event was right after my night shift... i tried to ask her out for a couple of times, but it was never successful... while clearing my wardrobe juz now, i saw all the letters & cards she wrote to me... maybe i never really confess to her directly, coz i always felt dat i may not be able to bring her enough happiness with my current state... dere's song dat i always thought of her whenever i listen to it... (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NIl0Bh2DwWo&feature=related)... i do miss the chocolate dat she made me during my 3rd yr in nus... on her last day at work... she made chocolate too... but i juz recovered from fever... in the end, our colleagues finished all up... (cheek frenz of mine who read this... u all better not make fun using this... else i sure dig out all ur dark secrets & tease u back... bawahaha...)

Family:
- i told my parents, so long as i dun get my masters i will not make any plans for marriage or car... unexpectedly, they din dare to ask for too much money from me
- for my dad, i'm paying the house utilities bill ($200+ max/month). I got for him a supp POSB everyday, in case of emergency
- for my mum, $150 and I got for her a sup card of Citi SMRT card., in case she needs it. I will still meet my mum up at least once per week for a meal or go shopping with her
my mum is still recovering from her stroke since last yr march... her left hand & leg are still quite weak...this yr alone... she tripped & fell at least 5 times... she factured her left hand and it was put on cast... after the cast was removed, she fell and her left hand is on cast again... SIGHZ... i'm not sure how long she will last but i will visit her once per week and to make her happy while i still can. currently, she seems to be addicted to mahjong & plays it almost everyday... i felt dat one or twice per week is ok... but she's over-doing it...

- my brother, he left his job in oct... will be working again in jan... hope dat he will stay in this job for long... as far as i can rmb he never stayed in any job for more than 2yrs... he also dun much savings too & spend quite alot too... i hope he will be able to realise it one day dat it is always wise to keep 2-3 months of ur salary in bank for rainy days... recently, he turned to me & ask me to use my credit cards to pay for a mac book by installments... lol... unknowingly to him, i got plans to get a mac book too... i need it for my iphone... :X
- 2nd mum, still healthy but still as bad-temper... lol... i guess dat's her nature ba... usually when she goes off... my dad & sister are the ones dat suffer... overall, she's a kind-hearted person...
- sister (also most of ur so-called daughter... lol), getting more naughty and lazy... gives up on studies too easily... i think i got to give her extra care and attention... for her poor results in pri 2, we adults r partly responsible too...

Regular meet-up frens:
- Eugene & JunHao: 2 science freaks from nus... lol... a major in physics & a major in computional science... with a chemistry major... 1 cheese luver & 1 veg eater... with a meat luver... having meals together could be quite a hassle at times... we swam, jog & went ktv together... btw, jh cant sing well, he is always half to 1 beat behind... :X... as for eugene... his voice will only sound gd in certain songs...
- Raymond Koh: not u... sengwei (dun be angry seng wei... the most, i'll let u stroke my thigh :X)... lol... this Raymond is my kindergarden classmate... sec sch mates, 3 years poly classmate, army spec course mate, stays in my neighbourhood, his birthday is 1 day b4 mine and current colleague of Esther... he's been single thru out his life... i strongly believe he's still a virgin... btw, quite a gd catch... & a joker too... gers who r interested in him... do let me know...
- Esther Lim: knew her since yr1 in nus... unexpectedly became a colleague of Raymond...
- Gravin: my junior in SP, landed up in same company as me... i guess among all my colleagues, he is the closest to me...

Resolution for 2009:
- Try to stay healthy with less MC for work
- Will lose extra weighs in a healthy way with regular exercises
- Complete clearance of my study loan with a total of ~3.4k left (Target Jan 09)

- Travel to Hainan Island to visit my grandparents' homeland (Target 2010)
- Travel back to Belgium again after 10yrs... (i was dere in 6 nov to 2x dec 1999)
- Go Batam to shop & for spa
- Settle down with a stable relationship
- Continue on to learn
- Save at least SGD$15k
- To commit myself with at least an 1hr of swimming & jogging every week
- To keep in touch with frenz dat i dun get to meet for a long time

Long-term goals:
- to persuit a masters in chemistry, likely overseas (Target yr: 2013)
- cherish my family & relatives
- to stay happy & able to make others happy too

Joke

2008-10-15T04:47:00.001+08:00

A man walks into a drug store with his 8-year old son. They happen to walk by the condom display, and the boy asks, "What are these, Dad? To which the man matter-of-factly replies, "Those are called condoms, son. Men use them to have safe sex." "Oh I see," replied the boy pensively. Yes, I've heard of that in health class at school." He looks over the display and picks up a package of 3 and asks, "Why are there 3 in this package? " The dad replies, "Those are for high school boys, ONE for Friday, ONE for Saturday, and ONE for Sunday." "Cool" says the boy. He notices a 6 pack and asks, "Then who are these for?" "Those are for college men," the dad answers, TWO for Friday, TWO for Saturday, and TWO for Sunday." "WOW!" exclaimed the boy, "then who uses THESE?" he asks, picking up a 12 pack! With a sigh and a tear in his eye, the dad replied, "Those are for the married men. ONE for January, ONE for February, ONE for March....etc."

My 9th hp... read on to find out...

2008-09-06T12:26:00.005+08:00

From nokia to LG... finally now Apple~~~ iPhone...

I used to be an Nokia fan... coz their hp is very user frenly, attractive & affordable... best of all... whenever u go to chalet or camp... sure u will find some1 who brought a nokia charger... dat's y... my 1st 8 hp r all nokia... however, for multi-purpose hp... nokia N-series is rather laggy... they r all rather small but fat/thick... like my tummy :X

for my 8th hp, i decided to go for PDA phone... LG KS20 was recommended by some of my fren... so i bought it... & it became a bad choice... the keypad is so small... or maybe my fingers r too fat... composing an sms has never been so bothersome b4... i guess i was too used to nokia... i felt dat LG r too focus on outlook, rather than function & user-frenly... i guess the keypad is small coz they expect us to use the stylus provided... so after 4months of using KS20... i trade in for iPhone...

9th hp... iPhone, black, 16Gb... I only top $130 & extend my contact by 6 months more... & my monthly MIO bill is reduced by $14 ($125-> $111)... it's totally cool... so many functions.... GPS, weather report, ipod... & best of all so much easier to use... the earphone is quite cool also... the mic is so slim & small... alot of applications dat we can download & personalise using itunes... patching the firmware can also be done using itunes... this phone really bring me into another level in the gadgets world... best of all, it is as user-frenly as nokia hp... in short, best hp i ever had. :) muakz~~

SPSU Senior BBQ

2008-08-31T03:04:00.004+08:00

It's kinda late to post this outing... but at least it's better than never. :)

On 16th Aug, some of my old frenz decided to hold a BBQ & I was invited by Kaixin & JR.

It's been so long since we met... some of them goes as long as 8 years... especially Lijia, Samantha, YenLing, PJ... I went right after my afternoon shift, knowing dat I am tired... but it was worth the effort...

Even though it was the 1st time dere, i could identify some familiar voices from a distance away... when i step in... Samantha goes, "u didnt age at all", YenLing said, "Mermaid". :)

I saw 2 new faces... 1 female & 1 male... After some time later (>30mins. ok ok, I'm slow), then some1 called the female, PJ... I was shocked~!! Omg~~~ she's PJ... in such a sexy dress and makeup... The PJ I knew, way back in SP always wear slippers & shorts... like a little boy...

We played a drinking game... guess wat... I was the 1st round loser & was made to drink all the funny mixture... redbull + vodka in plastic cup... sure taste very exotic & very synthetic... it sarks~!! My pulse went up to 2 beat per sec... never had I got so drunk b4 but I'm still aware of what I'm doing... I swear dat I'll not drink redbull if i can avoid in future...

On the 2nd game, I got this card which I can do something out of the blue & everyone got to follow me... so I quietly kept the card for some time & out of the sudden, I jumped up & laughed at Hans loudly. Everyone paused for a moment and gave me the bryan-is-drunk-look. After a dew sec, then they started knowing dat I got dat card and they followed.

It's too late for me... I already locked dat image into my mind... & I couldnt stop laughing, totally out of control for me... I nearly cried out of it... my body was totally heating up... pulse was even faster... I tried to calm myself down... the excitement was soon taken over by a pain in my chest... so tight & constraint... I couldnt even stand up straight... I squad down and tried to control my emotions and breathing... but it doesnt seem to be very effective... It almost like I am at the verge of heart attack...

I cleared my thoughts again and think of a slow song... this time, the pain seems to be fainting off slowly... I guess the key is to stay calm and not to panick. That was the 2nd time in my life dat I ever laugh so hard...

Knowing dat I almost hit my limit, I requested not to drink anymore... but after awhile, they asked me to join in again... & it was my killer.... beer... I dun like beer... especially if it's mixed with funny things like other types of wine and ashes... I got this funny feeling inside.... redbull + vodka + beer = vomit... yeah~~ I am out of the game again as they played on... I took over as card dealer... haha... easy job... :)

We did many stupid actions and even got some minor cuts on our hands, but everyone was happy. Even for Lijia, he bumped into a pillar and it's painful for him, but he couldnt stop laughing.

After the game, Dillon spot an eclipse... and every1 dashed out to see it... it's was so beautiful... only the right side of the moon is left and it's getting larger...

Thnx Lijia for providing his grand's place for us...
Thnx JR & RH for the spirit...
It's been a great night for me... I think it's 1 of the best event I had in this yr...
Hopefully it wun be another 8yrs till we meet again...

Free-IQTest.net

2008-07-13T15:30:00.002+08:00

Free-IQTest.net - Quick IQ Test

Happy national day 2007

2007-08-09T05:14:00.000+08:00

Once again... it's the time of the year... national day... :)

I should be back again to blog... but how long will i last? time holds the answer...

oh ya... i added an interesting song to the blog... it's a theme song of the anime "Amaenaideyo!! Katsu!!"

if u r interested in it, u can get it at crunchyroll... pls note dat it's a highly adult content anime...

the direction of this blog will be once again filled with mind teasers stuffs which i'm always been interested in... of coz many many of my thoughts...

Code breakers

2007-08-09T05:12:00.000+08:00

Mastermind (Code breaker), a game where there are 4 slots to be filled with 4/5 colours... & given with only limited tries to solve the hidden code.

well, i used to play codebreaker of neopets when i was still a teen... & somehow came up with a simple way to tackle it...
recently, I'm been playing guild party quest of maple story (SEA) of stage 3... where r 4 slots with 4 items (food, wine, scroll & badge)...
whichever the case is this is still code breaker...

before we start in to my proposed approach, let's look into the max. no. of possibility of we play around with the no. of slots (x) and no. of objects (y). the layout will be quite similar to a graph for the ease of adaptability.
5----5--25--125--625 ----- lazy to count liao... :X
4----4--16---64--256--512
3----3---9---27---81---243
2----2---4----8---16----32
1----1---1-----1---1------1
y/x--1---2----3---4------5

if you still can recall your upper secondary elementary mathematics (sec 5 for me), we ben taught how to find the equation for this series of number... pls take a moment to think thru, else juz scroll down for the answer...

Max(number of slots, number of objects)
Max(x,y) = y to the power of x, y^x

for maplers,
max(2,5) = 25 ( it is somehow kerning party quest stage 2... with a attached condition, 2 of the slots must be object 1 and 3 slots must be object 2. hence, the actual no. of possibility will be less than 25.)
max(2,6) = 36 (kerning party quest stage 3... 3 slots must be object 1 and the other 3 is object 2)
max(2,8) = 64 (lubridum party quest stage 8... 5 slots must be object 1 and 3 slots is object 2)
to solve the above type of code breakers, just do a simple trial and error...
eg: max(2,5)... object 1 = 1, object 2 = 0
start with 11100, 11010, 11001, 10110, 10101, 10011, 01110, 01101, 01011, 00111... & stage clear... so that number of possibilities been reduced to 10 instead of 25... thanks to the attached condition...

max(5,3) = 243 (similar to orbis party quest... thankfully there is another rule to ease the solving process; sum of 3 slots is equal to 5...
to solve this code breaker, you can draw out a flowchart or if u r familiar with programming, u can use a logic run... i have place the flowchart in words format... sry, if it looks too messy to you.
start with 500 (note: 5+0+0 = 5)
3 possible conditions; clear, 1 correct or all wrong...
I) if 1 correct, it cant be the 5 which is correct...so either slot 2 or slot 3 is correct...
so the next step will be 410, this is to test whether the 3rd slot is 0 or not...
once again 3 possible results will be given; clear, 1 correct or all wrong...

Ia) 1 correct,
assuming the 3rd slot is still 0... so try 320,
if result is 1 correct, then run 230, 140 and 050.
if result is all wrong, then 3rd slot is not 0. the answer is 401. (rmb 410 gives 1 correct, so 1st slot has to be 4 and 2nd slot is 0.)

Ib) all wrong, then the 2nd slot should be 0, so run the following sequence till stage clear; 302, 203, 104 and 005.

II) if all wrong, then next try will be 311 ( note:3+1+1=5)
3 possible conditions; clear, 1 correct or all wrong...

IIa) 1 correct, so either the 2nd or 3rd slot has to be 1... try 221
3 possible conditions; clear, 1 correct or all wrong...

IIa1)1 correct, try 131
assuming the 3rd slot is still 1... so try 131,
if result is 1 correct, then run 041.
if result is all wrong, then 3rd slot is not 1. the answer is 213. (rmb 221 gives 1 correct and 2nd slot is 1.)

IIa2)all wrong, so 2nd slot is 1... try 113 & 014...

IIb) all wrong, try 122
2 possible conditions; clear or 1 correct...
IIb1)1 correct, try 032 and 023

Ok enough of mastermind similar code breakers... here is the one which is totally similar to mastermind except dat, the number of objects and tries is less than mastermind.
Guild party quest in perion....
Max(4,4)=256 with only 7 tries...

to be continue...

if you wan an alternative approach...
http://www.tnelson.demon.co.uk/mastermind/

of coz, there are also other options... juz do a simple net search & various ways of solving mastermind will be available...

Out of the box 2...

2006-10-07T01:53:00.000+08:00

background:
sometimes i wonder why a mouse (a computer input device used to control the movement and actions of a cursor) is constructed to be like a soap bar or mouse-shaped. for newbies, it would take them quite some time to familiarise themselves in using a mouse effectively. very often, the older generations could take up to week to master the movement of a mouse well...

proposed idea:
i always thought that a pen-like device should be used over the convention mouse... where the tip of the pen has a pressure sensitive roller(like roller mouse) or light sensitive device(like optical mouse). as for the left and right click buttons, can be positioned at where the thumb and first finger rest on the pen.

the advantages:
- since the operating style is almost the same as a mouse, then ppl who r illerate to computers, can pick up the usage of this pen-like mouse more easily...
- this pen-like mouse will be more sensitive and accurate than the conventional mouse, in terms of drawing and graphics usages. hence, this device can double up as graphic pen...
- less materials will be used, therefore more environmental friendly...

Out of the box....

2006-07-22T22:30:00.000+08:00

this is a new topic in this blog... all these r my suggestions which could improve our surroundings... if my suggestions is similiar to any ideas from other source, it is juz by chance...

background:
very often we see buttons inside the life; the lvl no. buttons, door close, door open ans emergency door... however, is the "door close" button really necessary?

proposal:
if the electronic programming of the lvl no. buttons includes a door close function, then the "door close" button can be scrapped...

benefits:
- reduce the usage of materials; button, wires, press sensitive sensor etc...
- less manufacturing and setup time

disadvantages:
- users (like Lydia and Shiying... :P ) may find it slightly more confusing to operate such a lift... users may wait for the auto-close function to run, rather than to press the lvl no. button to re-generate the door clsoing button...
- this proposal is totally unfit for old lifts without a safety door open function, whereby able to detect an object or person who may lie in between the path of the door. 2 existing devices are commonly used; pressure sensitive and IR-sensors...

Handling my frenz...

2006-07-14T22:22:00.000+08:00

ever since i entered poly, i started to widen my circle of friends by joining clubs (cadc, cls, spsu, cssc)... even when i 1st entered poly, i chose to join csc... thru the orientation camps, i got myself into seeing alot of new faces and making new frenz... to me, frenz juz come and go, but memories and experiences stay...

everytime when i got myself into knowing a big grp of ppl from camps... we will stick quite close together and go out almost everyday... however, as soon as school starts... our frequency to meet drops...

luckily on this world, we got the internet for me to keep in touch with frenz... at current stage, i am more attached to msn and yahoo grps, over the former icq(if anyone remembers it.). i dun really like the idea of the no. of contact limit msn imposed... else i could haf place a few hundreds of frenz (new or old) inside like icq... so i got to delete off those ppl who i dun really chat with them often on msn and will not come to chat with me... of coz, this does not mean the end of the frenship...

to me, they r juz taking up a slot in my msn and who knows my contact could have been removed from their list... in the recent 3yrs, my msn contact limit had overflown for 6 times...

since i often make new frenz thru many means... it's inevitable for me to bump into ppl who cant really get along well with me... a typical list of ppl who i dislike r on this blog... pls do a simple search by rolling ur mouse (lol... i'm still so primative... well, i'm using optical mouse le :P) and ur eye balls around in my blog...

my 1st approach would be likely to have a gd talk with dat person... but if i see it's not working, it will be isolation and keep my profile in their lives as low as possible... this is to avoid further conflicts and unhappiness, till the stage where the friendship no longer holds... of coz, they are still free to touch in contact with me, juz dat i wouldnt take the 1st step to get them out...

to me, every friendship is precious... we r being brought together for some reasons for sure... then let time heal the disagreements and some time later when we meet again, we can still greet and smile with each other...

of coz, i will try not to let the past disharmony comes in between us... however, it will still serve as a guide for me to handle dat person according... if disputes were to come in again, i will be back to isolation...

i noticed most ppl have a tendency to share how they feel abt a person behind their backs... if it's some gd comments, it will be nice... however, too often... ppl r toking badly behind others, then it will be unfair to dat person and may do dat person harm also... some ppl's thought could be easily distorted and the target could lose some frenz...

also, even if the ill talks abt dat person is true, it would be better to let the person know what is going on and let he/she decide whether they are willing to improve... even some1 who is given a death sentence are still given rights to talk and make his/her last wishes...

i came across ppl who ill talks behind others b4 for quite alot of times... my suggestion for them is to let the target know abt it...

some responded dat they dun wanna be the bad person to do so... i think if you dun wanna be the bad person, then might as well dun bad-mouth behind others... u will end up as a bad person if u r a back strabber.

some feared to approach the prime target, as they thought dat their friendship could be at risk, but believe me... if u ever let dat prime target know u r talking badly behind him/her... u r putting dat friendship at greater danger...

some came to us as a thought of goodwill, as they are trying to warn us abt the prime target. Thnx for ur intention, but i believe dat i am good enough to judge a person myself... if u over do it, u will be gaining bad impression of urself to me instead...

wonder why i am so concern abt ppl who r being back strabbed? coz i was once a victim and i believe many of us were too... 1 of my belief is... never do the things to others dat u do not wish others to do to u... the negation is also valid... do things to others dat u wish others to do to u...

also if u were 1 of the listeners of the ill talks... pls be conscious dat popularity of the person who spread it must not be a factor to influence ur talk... very often, we r so easily shifted by ppl who we trust, like and believe... it's always gd to hold some certainty of doubts and not too much or none at all... then use ur own judgement to eliminate or amplify the certainty... pls dun rule out the possibilities of a misunderstanding is involved or the person who backstrab could be the evil person...

for my case, if i ever haf bad opinion of a person... i will not spread it to my frenz...
i believe my frenz r gd enough to judge on their own... unless i see harm or possible threats for my frenz, i'll step in...

lol... finally did a piece of thinking material again after so long... & i am really servicing my aim for setting up this blog... to know me better and to think more... :)

"knowledge and wisdom are useless if we dun think when we r using it..."

Puzzle of the day

2006-06-26T01:17:00.000+08:00

The King of Freedonia has caught 10 spies from the Kingdom of Sylvania who attempted to poison his wine. The King of Freedonia keeps 1000 bottles of wine in his cellar. The spies managed to poison one of the 1000 bottles but were caught before they could poison any more. The poison is a very special one that is deadly even at one-millionth the dilution of the poisoned wine bottle and takes EXACTLY 24 hours to kill the victim, producing no symptoms before death.

The trouble is that the King doesn't know which bottle has been poisoned and the wine is needed for the Royal Ball in exactly 24 hour's time! Since the punishment for attempted regicide is death, the King decides to feed some of the wine to the spies. The King informs his wine steward that he will be able to identify the poisoned bottle by the time the ball starts and kill at most 10 of the spies. Further, each spy drinks only once.
How does he do it?

lol... if u wan the solution... u got to ask me urself...

Thoughts of the month...

2006-06-06T12:33:00.000+08:00

lol... wondering why "Thoughts of the day" been changed to "Thoughts of the month", i'll leave it for you to find out... it's not to hard to know... think~!!

"A person who is happy with his life is easier to wake up from his dreams..."

"Putting knowledge in gd use is more impt than putting it in our brains..."

As usual, these thoughts juz popped into my mind out of nowhere... haha... pls pardon me for not polishing it well enough...

What if da doors of the MRT been blocked by inconsiderate ppl...

2006-04-29T04:37:00.000+08:00

yup... u read da topic & here r some of my funny suggestions, dat may work...

1) Sneeze loudly and must sure ur mucus spread out a large area infront...

2) Give a sudden scream...

3) Give da person facing u a lusty look...

4) Open ur umbrella and force your way out...

5) Make big actions as you walk out... maybe dance your way out...

6) Stand at da entrance and blocked their way in... once they r in, then move out...

7) Wear very smelly clothes...

8) Force your way out and make sure u push them away...

haha... anyone else got more ideas??

A story...

2006-03-13T01:38:00.000+08:00

i asked B a question regarding some work issues, which B is supposed to know, but B delibrately told the incorrect answer and i believed... though i was supposed to know but it slipped off my mind...

the next day, thru a discussion with C, i found out another answer and got confused... so i decided to check with 1 more person, D and i received the same answer as C. then D added something more, B told D that he replied the incorrect answer on purpose, coz B thought i was irritating.

Actual conversation (those within * are edited)
me:*question*?? lol... kinda confused...
B: alot.. (he's not answering the question)
me: *n* or *m*
B:the number doesn't matter, really
B: *m*

if juz a few questions is considered irritating, then i would choose to isolate myself from B for a long time. i believe that the impression of me to B is quite bad already and been a long time. time and time again, unpleasant things always occur between B and me. also B always been nice to me face to face... if 1 word is for me to describe B, it would be fake...

to me, with it comes to work issues... it's best to give accurate answers and reply honestly... else misunderstand may occur and more work are needed to clear it up... once i lost trust in some1, which is hard to occur, i would hardly and never will regain it... a similiar incident took place 7 years ago, till today i will only talk to dat person if it's really necessary, coz his status on my list is merely a working partner and nothing more...

Thoughts of the day...

2006-02-25T05:24:00.000+08:00

it's been quite long since i'm doing thoughts in here...

i'm going to discuss abt 1 of the impt survival skills in life we all been have, able to tell the difference or the be observant. when we juz barely learn how to move around, we been exposed to all sorts of tools to assist us to equip with the basic skills to tell the difference. when we were merely a child, these tools are none other than toys. a very common toy like such, is a box with holes of different shapes (star, square, circle and more) and a few blocks of the same shape. this toy enables infants to exercise their abilities to feel, think and observe.

in a general view, with it comes for us to be sensitive, we need to depend on at least 1 of the 5 senses (see, smell, taste, listen, touch). Colours, shapes and surface interaction with light are easily differentiated by our eyes. Our noses are able to tell us whether a scent is strong or weak and nice or odor. our tongues are capable of detecting 5 types of taste; sweet, sour, bitter and salty and umami(hmm... wat happened to spicy?). Our ears capture sound and sort it accordingly. The free nerve endings in our skin are sensitive to mechanical, thermal or noxious stimulation. All the above 5 senses requires a storing and processing object, that is our brain. if we encounter anything foreign and freshly received by our brain, we would try to correlate or match with one or few references in our storage bank. when no match could be found, we may consider getting more information and to study it further.

cooking is 1 of the useful skills in life which made us use all the 5 senses, which made it so interesting to me. if got chance, do go and learn it... btw, learning how to cook all by urself, will lie a path filled with failures... do choose a gd mentor ba... :)

My lucky charm...

2006-02-25T05:22:00.000+08:00

i did a simple test to find out what my lucky charm could be... ironically, it's something that i least expect to be... so cruel...

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Rabbit's Foot

There's just something mysterious about you when it comes to luck. That's why your good luck charm is a rabbit's foot.

Originating in the voodoo back waters of the bayou, the rabbit's foot is extremely powerful and brings good luck to all (except rabbits).

Some say that the rabbit must be killed during a full moon by a cross-eyed person and the left hind foot must be carried in the left jacket pocket for it to be truly lucky. However this is not always the case. Given the bunny's reputation for fertility, you might get lucky at the mere thought of a rabbit's foot.

Regardless of your ritual, carrying a colorful rabbit's foot is a constant reminder that you are lucky, and have great things to look forward to.
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so will anyone buy me 1? lol...

what my frens think abt me...

2006-02-17T00:51:00.000+08:00

keith thinks: caring, intelligent, happy, quiet, wise, witty.
Mervyn thinks: complex, sensible, adaptable, observant, searching, dependable.
el_M thinks: observant, intelligent, reflective, sentimental, friendly.
shifeng thinks: calm, friendly, sentimental, silly, observant, loving.
gz thinks: intelligent, complex, observant, able, logical, self-assertive.
trix thinks: accepting, friendly, sensible, cheerful, observant.
handsome daniel lee (*puke*) thinks: logical, observant, sentimental, quiet, intelligent, self-assertive.
Calvin thinks: logical, modest, dependable, able, witty, complex.
Gab thinks: intelligent, helpful, knowledgable, friendly, mature, witty.
algernon thinks: able, complex, clever, happy, mature, intelligent.
hamtaro thinks: calm, able, friendly, organised, dependable.
julia thinks: warm, helpful, friendly, kind, caring.
tina lee thinks: confident, wise, helpful, cheerful, quiet, tense.
tian thinks: cheerful, extroverted, intelligent, observant, spontaneous.
Huey Sian thinks: mature, knowledgable, responsive, confident, friendly, observant.
FreD thinks: friendly, ingenious, observant, happy, spontaneous, witty.
aizhen thinks: clever, helpful, knowledgable, patient, modest.

frenz of mine, wanna contribute?
http://kevan.org/johari?name=bryanlee

Year of the dog...

2006-01-30T20:43:00.000+08:00

this yr, as usually, all my relatives from my mother's side gathered at my cousin's place at bukit batok... we chat, gambled, chat etc... the recent lost of my cousin was locked within the memories of us... we would arrive at a moment of silent as anyone starts to mention her or my maternal grandma, who passed away one year ago...

pity is the only word, many of us would use when we see my cousin's children... 3 of them, 1 female and 2 males age 16+, 12+ and 10+ respectively. if you been visiting my blog quite frequently, u would observe my breakage with my blog in the month of Dec last yr... it's not dat i din make an effort to make an entry... i did... but as soon as i started blogging... i would write a super long entry... when i'm done... a resisting force prevented me from publishing the post... alas, i juz closed my browser... also, my house been playing host for my cousin's children to play maple... haha, i cant post any description abt their stay in my house, as 1 of them would check on my blog once in a while now... all i can say abt them is... kids, kids & kids...

let's change the mood of the note abit. till today, i collected $96 of ang bao $$... hehe... though it's not a big sum, as least, i'm richer by a hundred now... oh yeah~! this yr is the 1st time, i bought a red shirt for myself... & it looked great... not only to me and my relatives too... keke... this sat, i'll be meeting my poly classmates and i hope they are all doing fine. it's been at least 5yrs since i last time them all together... some of them are already married with child liao... this means more ang bao~! hahaha... :)

Is what we haf in SG so bad...

2006-01-24T22:32:00.000+08:00

Finally here to blog... lol... took a loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong break from the bloggy world... finally~! i'm back... but how long will i last... ha~! only time will tell... i think most of my frenz haf already cut down their frequency on checking my blog site... but hey~! dun give up ok? hmmMMMMMmmmMMmmmmMMMmmm... (like F1 engine... for this part only csc folks will know...)

there is something been constantly bothering me since a couple of years back and i haf been frequently be reminded of this issue by frenz... around me, i often see ppl illustrates how citizens in other countries (i guess we dun haf to name the countries here rite...) behaves... and Singaporean, as a whole, seems to be miles apart from it... i muz admit in Singapore we haf quite a high proportion of inconsiderate ppl ard... but from what i believe, this figure is on a negative gradient and we muz be constantly remind ourselves not to commit things dat we feel dat it's wrong... ha... easier said than done...

here are the common inconsiderate actions/ppl that i encountered:
- litterbugs: every yr, our country look into this issue seriously, as we want to maintain the impression of clean & green to not only tourist but to our citizens too. Also, it is we, Singaporean, that will enjoy the wonderful sight of the cleanliness...

- a cleaner just mopped the floor and we juz marched across with a trail of prints behind... & our poor cleaner will get a scolding dat their superior. For the elderly cleaners, they got to strain their backs again to do extra job. normally, i would try to detour or given with no choice, cut thru at either extreme sides with big pace. unless i'm on a destructive mood... bawahaha... i will let everyone see how my shoe prints looks like... so far, i haf yet to do dat...

- at both sides of a door, ppl are trying to get over the other side with no seconds wasted. this act is so common at doors of public transport and toilet... eh... for the toilet part, i can understand for some to do so... but for public transport, i see no reason for ppl outside to get in first... on the contary, i see more reasons for ppl inside to get out of the bus faster... in order to make room for more ppl to get in and maybe rushing for time... if ppl at both sides is not giving in, then more time will be wasted... dere was once i was trying to get off an MRT, a guy trying to push his way thru... as soon as i felt his rude force... i applied a counter force to disrupt his intrusion.

- unflushed toilet bowls and urinals. i muz put some of this fault to the automatic infra-red sensors in most toilets nowadays, but but but... this is not an excuse for us to be lazy... we are still accountable for not checking before we leave the toilet...

- "table hoggers" during meal time at food court. ppl who finished their meals, sitting down dere to convert the food dat they haf juz consumed into fats to wrap ard their body. while the hungry souls standing nearby slowly reduced into ash and bones...

ha... i believe dere are many many more... but at this pt of time, i can only dig these acts out from my little brain...

A sad story...

2005-11-22T14:25:00.000+08:00

Long Long time ago, in the Tiger Kingdom
lived a pair of siblings.Both were blessed
with some gifts. Brother had a pair of eyes
who could see a distance far far away. Sister
had a pair of ears who could listen to anything.
They grew up together and experienced happiness
and sadness together. They like to run to the
hills to play. Brother would look at far away
countries and tell the sister the majestic view
that he see. Sister would listen to the beautiful
sounds and describe for the brother.

As time goes by, brother and sister started to
fall in love with each other. They knew that it
was wrong, but they could not control themselves.
They continued to love each other.

Alas, their parents found out about it. Father
was very mad, mother was very sad. The neighbours
would point fingers at them and gossip about them.
Brother and sister were adamant about their love
for each other.

To prove that they were truly in love with each
other, Brother destroyed his eyes and Sister
destroyed her ears. They felt that since they
could not get the blessings, they did not want
the gifts...

Long long after, a musician heard this beautiful
love story and was touched by it.
He decided to compose a song for the lovers.

I came across this song and it touched my heart
too. However, I did not buy his CD, so I cannot
share with you the lovely song.

I remembered the lyrics though, and will share
with you how touching this song is... enjoy..

(Chinese hanyu pinyin)

Liang zhi lao hu, Liang zhi lao hu

Pao de kuai, pao de kaui

Yi zhi mei you yan jing, yi zhi mei you er duo

Zhen qi guai, zhen qi guai....

Nice?

Laugh out loud...

2005-11-18T11:11:00.000+08:00

The Oxford Dictionary's latest definition of the following words:

Divorce: Future tense of marriage.

Cigarette: A pinch of tobacco rolled in paper with fire at one end
& a fool on the other.

Lecture: An art of transferring information from the notes of the
lecturer to the notes of the students without passing through the
minds of either.

Conference: The confusion of one man multiplied by the number
present.

Conference Room: A place where everybody talks, nobody
listens and everybody disagrees later on.

Committee: Individuals who can do nothing individually and sit to
decide that nothing can be done together.

Office: A place where you can relax after your strenuous home life.

Yawn: The only time some married men ever get to open their mouth.

Compromise: The art of dividing a cake in such a way that everybody
believes he got the biggest piece.

Classic: A book which people praise, but do not read.

Smile: A curve that can set a lot of things straight.

Etc.: A sign to make others believe that you know more than you
actually do.

Experience: The name men give to their mistakes.

Opportunist: A person who starts taking bath if he accidentally
falls into a river.

Miser: A person who lives poor so that he can die rich.

Father: A banker provided by nature.

Criminal: A guy no different from the rest....except that he
got caught.

Boss: Someone who is early when you are late and late
when you are early.

Politician: One who shakes your hand before elections
and your confidence after.

Doctor: A person who kills your ills by pills, and kills
you with his bills.

H5N1...

2005-11-16T10:49:00.000+08:00

i guess many of us are not very alien to the title... H5N1... the virus behind bird flu... everyday, there r bound to haf some news abt bird flu... many researchers even said dat this virus will wipe out abt 20%-30% of our population, if not under control... recently, they even reported dat this virus is able to immune itself from the common drugs dat we r using... i bet this is a bad news for both humans and birds...

H5N1... if u r artistic enough, somehow u can see the word "HEN" inside... keke... i wonder how did they agree to use H5N1 to label the bird flu? wat if this virus evolutes to another form? do we call it... H6N1, H5N2 or H6N2? guess i will haf to ask a life scientist or doctor...

here an interesting fact, i got from somewhere many yrs back... flu is not an illness originated from humans. in fact, it is from birds. then the flu evoluted and now it is able to be spread from humans to humans...

slow acid, o-cresol...

2005-10-13T15:16:00.000+08:00

on monday prac... ops, i'm toking abt practical again... keke... each of us were given a mixture of 2 unknown organic compounds dat we have to seperate and deduce their identity...

after doing a simple solubility test, i confirmed dat i was given a weak acid and neutral organic compound mixture... so i carried out my next step, solvent extraction to seperate both of them. at this pt of time, my hands started to itch... this feeling was quite terrible... so i went to rinse my hands with some alcohol and soap... hoping to neutralise the weak acid on my hands... next, i put on my gloves, which i failed to do so earlier...

as the expt went on, the itch and pain were consistently pestering me... until a pt of time, i removed my gloves. my goodness, they turned red and swollen... so i seek assistance from a friendly lab tech... he proposed to rinse my hands with ethanol and soap too... then he applied some oilment... by the end of the experiment, i can still experience a slight itch and pain. fortunately, the redness has been diluted... i also found that cuplit for my discomfort, ortho-cresol... it's a phenol with a methyl grp attached the nearest carbon next to the hydroxyl grp... phenol is a well-known chemical dat is corrosive to skin... i guess i was careless not to wear my gloves while handling it...

for the past few day, i was bothered by the periodical itches... i can see dat my pores were infected by o-cresol... today, i found out dat my skin is slowly shredding off too... this is the practical dat gave me the most problems so far...

for the next 2 mondays, i am required to handle o-cresol again... this time, i will be more careful...

clean teeth...

2005-10-06T14:10:00.000+08:00

keke... i bought an electronic toothbrush yesterday... wow, it really clean my teeth like after visiting the dentist... it feels really gd to run my tongue across my smooth teeth and gums... it's too often dat the last few teeth were not so well-brushed using a conventional toothbrush... i believe this would happen more often to sleepy heads like me... keke... in short, this new toothbrush is so cool... keke...

hmm... i think it been 4yrs since i visited a dentist... i can still recall that we are recommended to visit the dentist at least twice a year... seem dat i will still refuse to go unless i have any problem with my teeth and gums... keke... on my part, i have cut down on the intake of sugary food already, except ice-cream... also i always make the habit to rinse my mouth after a meal... lucky for all Singaporeans, the water that we consume is spiked with flouride to make our teeth less soluble to food acids...

the current problem i got with my teeth is.. my wisdom tooth... the lower 2 set have been erupting from my gums since 2002... 1 of them is a very likely site for food deposits to gather. often after my meals... i would run my tongue on dat tooth for a cleaning session... keke... i would go into much details into this... in case, u r eating while reading this at the same time... ya... surely, u would recommend me to get it removed... well, i will give it a thought when i'm back in the army ba... mainly, it's free and also got mc.. keke... :P

Bloggers at risk...

2005-09-26T06:53:00.000+08:00

i wonder if it too late to comment at the 2 guys who been charged for making some racist posts in some forum and their blog... well, at least better than never ba... luckily for me, i dun haf the habit to make such offensive comments on others or any issues ba... if u know me long enough or ever take notice of me, u will know dat i dun like to say any vulgarities at all... due to a promise i made when i was in pri6... so if u ever hear offensive words from me, most of the time i should be joking with a thought on my target too. otherwise on something bad muz haf happened to me ba... usually when my sky are darken, i will hide myself in the shadows... waiting for light to shine again...

to me, 1 of the difference between maturity and immaturity is... when we give comment on something, we should also give recommendation, not for self but for the sake of the big picture... in this way, the receiving party will appreciate it too... something dat i dislike abt ppl is... we often make inconsiderate comments abt others, coz we feel like it... if the receiving party is a sensitive person, s/he will get hurt... well, if dat person is similiar, then a dispute is likely to occur... thru my life, i always see such comments from ppl...whether to be the 3rd party or victim... i used to get affected by such actions and slowly my heart turned cold... it's so easy for us to offend anyone. once again due to lack of understand, wrong usage of words and tone to the receiving party... a smoothing voice to us usually, may become a noise pollution to us too... from love to hate... this is 1 of the beauty of humans... we r all cut out to think differently, from time to time... nothing is definite in life except changes...

if u r a person who easily say offensive things to others... let's use statistic to see the big picture... if we spur out offensive comments to 1 person everyday in a yr... we could have made 365 enemies or created 365 unhappy faces... similiarly, we haf foul our heart 365 times... likewise, if we create a happy smile once per day... we would have created 365 happy faces in a yr and we would have smile for 365 times... able to be understanding is never basic nature of humans... it's a process that each of us need to be mindful of... revenge does taste sweet and feels good, but it acts like a poison to intoxicate our hearts, degrading our personality...

well, watever how each of us want to choose our path to be... it's our own freedom with restriction by local laws and regulations... the option is open... to end off, lemme give a reminder... wat goes round, comes around... :)

Tiring practical...

2005-08-30T00:02:00.000+08:00

oh goodness... today my 8hrs prac is so pathetic... so many hectic procedures, to yield 0.0387g of product (only 30% yield)... well, i am 1 of the lucky ones in my group already... some of us cant even recover 0.02g of compound...

it is a blessing dat we started off part A of the experiment to synthesize metal-free porphyrin, dat took 2 hrs... today, we have wrapped up part B & C... part B required a series of heating steps... from reaction, product extraction, low intense removal of solvent and high intense removal of another solvent... haha... i think my solvent extraction process was quite well done and attracted alot of attention from my peers... keke... my aqueous phase (water) was totally clean and clear... while the others haf a dull yellow aqueous phase. somehow... it pressurized them to do more than the required 3 times for solvent extraction... in the end, they spend more time removing the solvent than me...

the worse thing is... only 1 machine is available for the high intense drying... many of us spent quite some time waiting... lucky for me, i was the 2nd to use the device... coz i got less solvent than the rest... keke... ops, think i sabo them in an indirect way...

the next step was column separation... we ran our product thru a column of silica gel with toluene:hexane mixture... as the collected sample is a composition of different compounds... they will each travel at different rate along the silica gel column. as the compound dat we are interested in is bright red in color... so we only collected the region dat is red in color... guess wat... everyone collected abt 1L of the bright red liquid and evapourate the solvent off to only 10mL... my goodness~! 1L to 10mL... so we all spent abt 1-2hrs on concentrating the bright red compound...

in the end, only such a small amount of product was being fabricated... so sad... & tiring... yawnz...

I'm impressed...

2005-08-25T14:28:00.000+08:00

harbourfront is usually a stop by pt for me, then i will usually take a stroll back home from dere. very often, i will come across many bangala workers and tourists... very often, i will offer my help to tourists, if i ever see them in doubt.

likewise for yesterday, i saw a blonde hair couple standing at the junction and a big map with them. i interrupted them and offered my assistance... according to them, they were trying to reach Shangri-la hotel at Orchard rd. hence, i told them to take bus 65.

rejecting my suggestion, they wanna walk to orchard rd from harbourfront... i was impressed but i also warned them dat the journey may take up to 2hrs... ha... wondering how i know it? well... i tried it before when i was in sec4. then both of them showed me the passion they have for walking. at the same time, they can get to see the surroundings in a better view too... i guess it's the difference in culture ba... in SG, we are drilled dat time is very impt. hence, many of us are moving in a faster pace... at the same time, we failed to appreciate and missed out many things dat are moving passed us.

i followed the couple for a while, till we hit the junction near my house. along the way, we chat... i guess many Americans would miss chewing gums in SG ba... so they asked where can they get it... sadly, chewing gums were banned in SG for more than 10+yrs already... i can still recall the reasons why chewing gums were banned at dat time... dark patches of used chewing gums were seen here and dere, creating an awful sights in the public area. if u are unlucky, u may get in contact with a fresh one too... pretty digusting rite... also, some jokers threw used chewing gums into the mrt track and ceased the service. well, we can see how inconsiderate Singaporeans can be at dat time... i think chewing gums can only be allowed for sale in SG, only if Singaporeans learnt how to be more considerate. i can say dat we r haf improved but still quite some way to go too.

1 of the gd way to see how considerate we haf become, can be seen in public toilets, except those which are very well-maintained by cleaners... basically, toilets is the most commonly-used places, shared by the majority. also, it is often the place being neglected by us, but it is so impt to us. we valued it when we haf the need, and totally forget abt it once it over... i dun haf to evaluate further on the need rite? keke... we often carry the thoughts dat it's the cleaners' job to maintain it and they are paid to do so... but how many of us would think dat how mentally challenging it is for one for clean up our mess, enduring the smell and tolerate the disgusting sights for such a low paid job... and cant each of us play our part to reduce their workload... do we really have to rely on posters and champaigns to drill us to be more considerate... we are humans, we should be able to think more and spare more thoughts for others too... i guess, this world will not improve, if we cant get our people to be considerate... humans... pls learn and educate each other to be considerate... :)

Dyeing my hair...

2005-08-24T15:55:00.000+08:00

ha... currently hiding in Jason's pgp rm to wait for Mervyn to come & dye my hair... oh no, it's my 1st time doing it lehz... think i can trust Mervyn ba... afterall, he always dye his hair 1... furthermore, it's very nice of him to make a trip to pgp, then off he go to settle his personal stuff and will be back to pgp again to check out on the results... oh yes, not to 4get abt Jason for lending his rm to me to dye my hair... ShaoWei should feel bad lehz... :P

the process of dyeing my hair is quite interesting and a totally new experience... thank to Mervyn who is quite experience, he warned me abt the pricking sensation when dyeing our hair. indeed, the pricking feeling was kinda unbearable... luckily, Jason's PC got some nice songs to divert my focus on my ears than on my head... keke...

the 1hr wait for the color to penetrate into my hair was kinda long... while waiting, i was trying to fix Jason's laser printer. unfortunately, i gave up after trying which means and ways i know of... Jason took over and found dat he actually forgot to connect his printer to the cpu... : ha... think i assumed dat Jason was not so blur to do so and i was wrong... also, with the color cream on my hair... it's not very convenient for me to bend down and check his cpu, which is on the floor... excuses excuses... for me to redeem myself... :P

yeah... as soon as 1hr passed, i took a relaxing and nice shower... cool, man... the hair color was very evenly spread across my hair... ha... if i got chance, will take a few photos ba... :)

Genki...

2005-08-15T22:51:00.000+08:00

wat a torture for me today... 8hrs of inorganic chemistry expt... taking in enormous amount of ethanol, acetone, DMSO, chloroform vapor... all i ask for was to indulge myself with some nice hot green tea and some sushi... thnx goodness, dat i managed to drag Gen, Alex, Dennis & Shao Wei to go to genki sushi at yih along...

when i reach dere... gen was next to me, followed by Shao Wei & Dennis... while Alex is still on his way... maybe catching up some more glance at Lixian in clubrm 1st ba... lol... the next thing, i did was to make hot green tea for them... as i opened the lid of the green tea powder container... gen asked, "how come the wasabi here is dry 1"... my face went flat... i was trying to figure out whether is she trying to crack a joke out or she really dun know... then from her eyes, i can tell dat she dun know... normally, i would laugh until dere is no 2mr, but i was kinda too tired to do so... nevertheless, i still gave her a smile and explained to her nicely... this kinda attracted Shao Wei's attention and so he ask wat happened... so i told him wat gen complained on the dry wasashi earlier... Shao Wei's reply was, "then how come the wasashi are lidat..." my face went even more flat... suddenly, i seems to be the alien among of the 3 of us... instead of laughing at them, i turned out to be laughing at myself... again, i was too tired to show it out... my heart did laugh though... :)

the story did not end here... more things happened after everyone get their own cup of green tea... gen was commenting of the green tea residure in her cup and asked me if she can stir it using her chopsticks... to make fun of her, i said yes... without any hesitation, she used the thicker end of the chopsticks to stir her green tea... how native & i felt so bad dat i deceived her, while she believe totally in me... how evil, i was... again, Shao Wei grew curious... he wanna find out wat happened... so Gen and i did a replay of wat happened from words to actions... then Shao Wei commented dat Gen used the wrong side of the chopsticks to stir her green tea... this is the 4th combo hit on me within 10mins... i felt so out of the grp... so foreign... it was funny and interesting for me though...

yeah... during dat tea break... i drank 6+ cups of hot green tea and ate 6 plates of sushi... the feeling is so gd... i like to enjoy hot green tea alot in fact... made me feel so comfortable to force some sweat out... yokatta... tanoshi desu ne...

Blades: swords, sabre and daggers...

2005-08-15T05:30:00.000+08:00

i haf been observing melee weapons since i watched 7 swords on the saturday of 2 weeks back... finally, made some observations here... haf anyone wondered why some blades are double-edged and single-edged... well, below is my pt of view...

double-edged blade:
the bigger version of such blades is very popular during the kings and knights era. where they wear thick armours to protect themselves from the cutting edge facing them, becoz the double-edged blade is too big and heavy...

for those who are using the middle to small sizes of this type of blade, often do not need to wear any metal armours... eg fighters in china... a standard type of this blade is commonly used in olden china... it is very much lighter and thin, as compared with those used by kings and knights... such blades are easier to control and less strength is needed to prevent urself being hurt by ur own blade...

the smallest class of these blades would be called dagger... commonly used by ninjas, hunters, malays etc... if u noticed here again, these groups of ppl do not need to wear any armour at all... instead they wear wateva they like when using dagger... the daggers used by malay warriors are more unique, it is designed with alot of curves on it... these daggers will leave a fatal wound on their enemies once they pulled their dagger out and let them bled to death... the bad thing of these daggers is... they cant be kept into normal covers and may accidentually hurt others too...

single-edged blades:
in eastern cultures, they are often much bigger than swords... eg the one Guan Gong used and "Tu Long Dao (Dragon Slayer Sabre)"... becoz if its weight, making it harder to control... they are only sharpened on 1-side only... such blades usually required to be controlled using 2 hands and can create a powerful wipe... the cutting force is contributed by the user's strength and weight of the blade, and the devastating blow is strong enough to break bones apart...

chopper and knives are the smaller class of this blade... they are more commonly found for cooking... keke... since only 1 side is used at each time, hence there is no need to sharpen both sides... there are also some cutting techinques, which requires the chief to hold the back of the knife, so this add more reason why only single-edged blades are used here...

Heritage walk...

2005-08-15T05:01:00.000+08:00

last sat, i joined Vivian, Ling Fong & Chee Kin, and we took part in a hertiage walk in city area... wanna guess wat's our grp name? wat else... keke... Zoi~!! (our cs camp 2004 grp3 name)... our walk started from 5:15pm to 8pm and from fort canning till boat quay... we cleared a total of 39 stations (10 must clear stations and 29 optional stations)... arghz... we accidentually missed out 1 station by my folly... felt so bad over it... but in the end, we found out dat we actually need to clear 15 optional stations only... well, this is the 1st time... we took part in it ba... i was super on of this walk and i nearly wanna run from point to point... however, becoz got gers ard... so i got to tame down my emotions... taking in this walk made me feel young and filled with energy... keke... i was so hyper-active thruout...

when we reached the ending pt, alot of other teams were dere liao... then we went to a nearby coffeeshop to haf dinner and got back to boat quay to check out the winners for the lucky draw... when we reached back the ending pt... our timing was juz rite... we managed to catch the whole scene of the fireworks... though it was not as fanciful as NDP, it is gd enough to take our breaths away... the entire event ended at 9:30pm sharp... well, next yr... i will not miss it again... hopefully, can be the 1st team to arrive & win the special prize... according to Ling Fong, it's a $3K cash... keke... any takers??

oh oh... abt my left leg... it seems to have recovered again liao... phew... after giving it a rest on friday... i did expect it to turn bad after the walk... surprisingly, after sleeping the whole of sunday, it dun seem to hurt at all liao... yup, my leg sprain always magically recovered within a few days... well, not sure when will it be back again... keke... i will juz haf to be more careful ba...

Ouch, ouch, ouch...

2005-08-12T03:29:00.000+08:00

woohoo... today went to do a 30-min survey at bugis area and received $30 for it... kewl... so my next stop was to sim lim and bought a new logitech wired keyboard and optical mouse set for only $36... so much for the $30 dat i earned... yup yup... i'm currently using it now :) i grew tired of wireless mouse liao... coz once every 2 months needs to replace the batteries *yawnz*... this keyboard is quite nice too, the tapping sound of the keyboard is very much softer than the old one, dat i'm using... keke... it's gd for me too. coz my bro always like to use the pc till very late, even when i am trying to get some beauty sleep... he got a habit of pressing the buttons very hard and loud... often disturb me to get myself to bed... so this keyboard and mouse set should be very valued for money to me... keke...

my next stop was to to heading for cs clubrm in sch... to help out in briefing our special projects of csc to our new volunteers... well, this is the place where the pain comes in... from quite a distance from the bus stop, i saw 197... knowing dat i will be late and not willing to miss the bus, i ran as fast as i could with a thick organic chemistry textbk is my bag and my new keyboard in my hands... phew, my efforts were not in vain and yup yup... i got on the bus... keke... then i noticed a stretching acute pain from my left ankle... i knew it, i must be sprained my old injury since army again... this is the 4th time, this sprain recurred to me again since this june... the 1st time was in the 2nd week of june (goodies bag packing day)... i jumped into the rubbish container to recover some anti-bacteria sprays with RenHong... well, the gd thing is at least i din slip and fall into the rubbish.. keke... the 2nd time was during sentosa finale run down... i was filming the whole event... i was deeply moved and motivated by the morale of all the campers. i neglected my injury and over-stretched it again... this is the main reason why i chose not to run away from the 105 water bombs (to subo pd and it happened to be my bd too) dat was prepared for it after it... keke... the 3rd time, was in the 1st week of july, when my sister fell onto my legs when i was sleeping... guess it's time for me to consult a specialist for it, else i will become more "lame" than ever... lol...

ya ya... i was very thankful that Clarice, ShunDeng and LG were willing to massage my leg. the force applied by Clarice is soft and ticklish... not hoping to initate another scandal also... i asked ShunDeng to take over... oh boy~! he applied the right amount of pressure and at the correct painful spot on my ankle... the pain was sharp but i felt very comfortable each time the pain went off... the point dat he pressed on, was actually a tendon... next comes, LG... he took over when ShunDeng got tired... LG pressed on another painful spot on my leg... this time round, it's a muscle... LG applied really alot of force and i nearly jumped out of my seat... still, i enjoyed the pain... keke... oh no... am i getting sadist here... lol... i liked to use laughter as a pain killer, to ease my pain... well, it works for me all along... keke...

much later, some of us had dinner at munchie monkey and watched project super star... while many others chose to go to clementi instead... i was feeling super hungry, so i ate 1 clayfish pasta, 1/2 plate of creamy pasta and 1 chocolate orea mondae... wow... i spent $13 on this meal... i have exceeded my daily pocket money for today liao... cant save 2mr... coz got night cycling with csc frenz and i promised Perry, dat i'll be down... then saturday going heritage trail with Ling Fong and Vivian, Vivian sponsored my admin fee for it... so nice... oh no~!! i cant give my leg and wallet, the rest dat they need... this is bad... jialat... & i actually wanna go for a swim during my 4hrs break 2mr...

keke... after dinner, i took a bus to harbourfront and took a 10mins walk backed home... yup... i was limping slightly thru out... keke... if come to worse case, i will give up the idea of swimming and night cycling 2mr... speaking of cycling... keke... my 3rd uncle from my mother's side... said dat he will give me a free bicycle... woah... so nice.... :) guess today is still a gd day to me, other than the sprain... :)

Level up~!

2005-08-09T03:03:00.000+08:00

finally... managed to fix jason's diy pc and get it ready to log on nus net... yesh~! this is the 6th diy pc dat i assembled since 2002... my goodness, this is also my 1st time fixing a mainboard with raid... since last monday, where i see all the parts lying inside their respective boxes. to now, all of them are working as a whole on top of jason's pgp desk... this baby has given me the most trouble so far, out of the 6 babies dat i assembled... however, my experience gained for this baby is the best out of all...

last monday: spent 6hrs... firstly, i spent quite some time getting familiar with all the parts dat jason bought; LCD monitor, casing, MSI mainboard, kingston ram, Pent3GHz cpu, black keyboard & mouse set, 128mB video card, 80Gb maxtor harddisk, tv tuner card, LG dvd burner and LG dvd drive. i guess i din follow him to sim lim to buy the parts, dat's y i spent rather long going thru them. next, jason said dat he wanna learn how to fix a diy pc too, hence the fixing process extended greatly(maybe i explain too much... lol...)... finally, it's time to launch the cpu for the 1st time *took a deep breathe*... everything seems fine except dat the bios is unable to detect the hard disk... oh no~!! i wonder why too & after all, it's my 1st time i'm fixing a SATA hard disk... then we spent 1-2hrs calling frenz & my mentor. sadly, no one could help us... also, i got our final CSC camp 2005 OC dinner at funan... so we gave up in pgp at the time when the buffet starts... we took a cab and i dropped jason at harbourfront... right away, i headed towards funan... out of my expectation, i encountered a traffic jam... sian, the cab driver has no choice but to take a detour and at last, reached funan... it was $16 on the meter!! from sch to funan only... i met up with the rest of the OCs at 7:30pm, many of them are already full. from the way, some of them looked at me, tells me dat they are thinking "wahz! PD is late for 2hrs!!" (as usual)... sianz... i also dun want it to happen too... :( juz too sway liao... still, i made use of the reminding time we have to talk to everyone who were presented... when we parted, some of them jokingly said... see u all at next foc camp... this statement was meant to be a joke, but somehow scratched my heart alittle... CSC camp brought all of us together for 6 months and 2 of them (2 APD of coz...) even worked with me for 9months, suddenly everything has to come to an end... oh well, hope dat the next camp OC would be as bonded as us... :) the end of this OC, marks the starting of new sch term... :)

last wed: went back to sch for a swim alone, but the weather was bad... real bad... so i camped in cs clubrm with Jiakai and Chee Kian... after dat, supposed to meet Jason to finish up the setup... and guess wat, he 4got to bring his transponder(the key to his rm)... in the end, both of us din get to meet... oh well, another bad day of my life, i guess... keke... laughing at how sway my luck was... nuting seem to go right for dat day...

last thurs: went back to jason's rm this time to finish up all the software part. finally, found out dat we need to acitvate the raid connectors from bios, in order to detect the hard disk... yup yup, problem no 1 solved~! next, we got to install all the softwares in too... same as the last time, explained most of what i feel Jason should know to him. some parts were rather tough, coz he didnt get much chances to use any computers during his army days... suddenly, headache no 2 appeared~!! his dvd burner was auto-disabled by winXP and we were unable to enable it. again, we ended the day with another problem left unresolved... coz he got a paper on the next day morning... my luck was still quite bad on today too, my heart been cut into 2 over an incident... oh well, life still goes on... :)

last sat: i was supposed to meet Jason again... but the sleepy head of mine worked too well dat day... think i gathered up too much sleep debts over the past week... at day, either fixing jason's pc problems or going out with csc camp grp2 folks... at night, chatting over msn or playing maple story... think i really got to quit or limit my playing hours for sure now...

sunday nite: we came to a conclusion over the fone dat we need to reformat his pc, so i gave him step by step instructions and he followed wisely... thru the nite, i received abt 10+ calls from him within 4hrs, on how to install all the softwares etc etc... without fail, we ended the day with 1 more problem... he was unable to set up both vpn and domain in his pc. in other words, he is unable to log on the net inside his rm... he was worrying dat we may need to reformat his pc for the 3rd time... lol... i took it easy, coz i know it wun happen... :)

monday: after having fun at settlers and dinner at queensway with some csc camp grp2 folks, jason and i reached his rm at 10pm... lol... within 15mins, i managed to get both vpn and domain fixed... at dat time, i see how super duper sian jason's face was... he seems to be guilty to make me go to his place for something dat he could do himself... well, it's ok to me... overall, this pc of his is 1 of my precious babies... keke... it's does not pinch me at all... :)

once done, we headed toward harbourfront to catch his last train back home... as for me, i will walk home as soon as i can... along the way, i was approached by a PRC (their accents is so easily recognised)... well, she reminded me of Lijie (keke... hope she dun give me the "orh orh" face over this when sch starts... :P) and she seems quite a nice person to me... hanging on her neck, i see a transponder (a key dat is commonly used in nus)... also, from the bus no. she mentioned, i can figure out dat she is likely to be going back to nus. it's 11:35pm and i felt dat it's not safe for a foreigner like her to be left alone at harbourfront and not to forget, she is a female too... so i followed her to the bus interchange to catch the bus dat she wanted to take... to our disappointment, the last bus has left... next, i proposed an alternative bus stop nearby where she can get on other buses to reach somewhere near her hostel too... guess our timing were juz nice, when we reached the bus stop, the right bus came and we parted... my most satisfying reward was a genuine smile from her (ahem...guys, no funny ideas here hor...). all i know is... she is under a student exchange program currently in nus... 3rd yr biz major...staying in PGP blk12... well, dat's all i know abt her, not even her name... hope dat this will leave a gd impression of her to our students ba... :) woah~! wat a long post, i made today... keke... well, it's summary of the week lehz...

What type of love best represents me...

2005-08-05T21:04:00.000+08:00

You have DIVINE love, and it shows in every fiber
of you. If you havent yet graced someone with
your love, dont rush. Not everyone deserves
someone as wonderful as you are because they
dont understand your rarity, but when you find
someone who does you will lead a very full and
wonderful life.

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Where does my hidden talent lie...

2005-08-05T20:56:00.000+08:00

Your hidden talent lies in COOKING. You are happy,
eager to please, and well mannered. The chef
is one of the most important members of
society, but unfortunately is often overlooked.
You dont mind though, you know how important
your role in life is and one day everyone else
will too. Until then, you are content to stay
in the background and keep everyone else happy.
After all, what would they do without you?

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How do i sleep...

2005-08-05T20:50:00.000+08:00

You are a peaceful sleeper. You recognize that
sleep is a necessary part of life, and
understand that there is no way for you to
fully appreciate everything around you if you
dont give yourself a break once in a while.
You are a very calm and collected person who
seems to have all of their ducks in a row, so
to speak. You enjoy life without getting
over-enthusiastic and appreciate harmony in all
things.

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What time of day best represents my personality...

2005-08-05T20:35:00.000+08:00

Sunset is the time of day that best describes your
personality. You are the definition of loner.
Its not that you dont like hanging out with
friends and meeting new people, you'd just
rather be by yourself. You may not show much
emotion, but you are kind to everyone and know
how to make people feel comfortable. The
saying "still waters run deep"
describes you very accurately.

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What sort of weapon best represents my personality...

2005-08-05T20:31:00.000+08:00

Your personality is best represented by the
traditional Japanese Katana. You are brave
beyond words and rarely (if ever) act for your
own personal gain. Your honor is very
important to you, and you strive to better
yourself and help others. You try not to let
emotions get in the way of making a sound
decision, and are usually quite successful.

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What do i need in my life...

2005-08-05T16:07:00.000+08:00

You need love.
You are a pretty normal, well-rounded person
that just craves that fairy tale love where you
will be swept off your feet and live happily
ever after. Chances are that you fantasize or
dream about it so much that you either see all
the guys/girls as unromantic or you tell
yourself that anyone could be your soulmate.
You long to have someone by your side and you
want to give back on the romance part too, not
just give.

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What type of killer am i...

2005-08-05T15:59:00.000+08:00

You are a Samurai.
You are full of honour and value respect.
You are not really the stereotypical hero, but
you do fight for good. Just in your own way.
For you, it is most certainly okay to kill an
evil person, if it is for justice and peace. You
also don't belive in mourning all the time and
think that once you've hit a bad stage in life
you just have to get up again. It's pointless
to concentrate on emotional pain and better
to just get on with everything. You also are a
down to earth type of person and think before
you act. Impulsive people may annoy you
somewhat.

Main weapon: Sword
Quote: "Always do the right thing.
This will gratify some people and astonish the
rest" -Mark Twain
Facial expression: Small smile

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BL1001 - understanding BL...

2005-08-03T18:37:00.000+08:00

today is the day where actually give some time juz for myself only... all the while, i'm been observing people and things ard me more, rather than sparing some thoughts over my actions and intention... i guess it's part of human nature to see far and think far. after all, we are brought up this way... humans haf been chasing things dat they desires, over things dat they already haf and near...
"If you look at what you do not have in life, you don't have anything.
If you look at what you have in life, you have everything." - from an email...

my thoughts abt humans are like a plate of "char kway tao", unevenly mixed and in a mess... however, it taste good, dun it... keke...

when i was heading home from cs clubrm, i planned out 2 routes in mind... 1st option, is to walk some distance to take 963 or 97 to harbourfront and walk home from dere. 2nd was to walk to KR hall bus stop and take 143, all the way back to home. haf u all noticed something? well, both routes dat i planned out does not need to transit to another bus at all... eg for route 1, i could have taken a bus from harbourfront to home. as for route 2, i could have taken internal nus bus to kr or pgp to catch 143. this allowed me to understand my nature abit better, when i'm alone...(pls note: alone...as i will generate another set of thinking with peers ard).

wat i expand further from my thoughts and actions were... i'm a person who dun like to stay at 1 point waiting alone... i prefer to be on my move or moving while waiting, eh... i think waiting is not a gd choice of word here, anticipating or expecting should be more appropriate... i remembered Yih Hong once told me in nov 2004, dat his lecturer mentioned dat a person can never be waiting and moving at the same time. waiting requires the person to stay at the same point. ha... quite true to me, so i changed my choice of word to anticipate or expect... y i chose expect? eg a father-to-be will be outside the operation room expecting his child-to-be to be borned... so he will always be moving to-and-fro outside the room... so isnt he is moving and expecting at the same time? ok ok... i know this is quite out of the topic, but find it interesting to share here... coz i'm crapping and wasting some of ur time again... keke...

back again, this preference of mine... allows me to zoom down to wat will i get from waiting vs moving while expecting...

1) waiting
- my body can get to rest or less tiring for my legs, unless i'm standing...
- wat i get to see is limited to wat comes near me and around a limited area surround the bus stop.

2) moving while expecting
- my body can get a light workout... burn some fats... keke...
- my area of exposure is greatly expanded and i can roam ard more freedom... everything along the way is more controlled by me, over worrying the bus will just zoom away...
- the only problems imposed will be the barriers dat hinder my path and the time limit (if any) i have to arrive at my next destination.

so by default, i would choose 2 over 1 and it's already programmed into my brain... hence, i would take out 1 juz now. wat i believe in and trying to demostrate here is... every actions done by a human except for love, has his/her reasons. if u r unable to decode the reasons for ur actions, very likely u either failed to read deep into ur mind or u dun understand urself well enough (of coz, for simplicity sake, i only list these 2 currently)... soul-searching with a clear mind, is a gd way to understand urself better... :)

to end, my final choice was to take route 2, as i target myself to reach home by 6:30pm to continue something dat i left pending b4 i left clubrm... when i chose this option becoz the path for me to walk is much shorter and time consumption is less too. eventually, i did reach home at 6:29pm and head straight to my PC... to slight disappointment, i didnt get a chance to carry on with my plan... dat's life i guess... :)

PS: all the facts dat i mentioned above is juz a summary and less formal & descriptive... but if u r interested to discuss with me... u r always free to contact me... :) overall, it's only a blog entry but not a report or thesis...

Thoughts of the day

2005-07-30T23:42:00.000+08:00

"Luv needs 2 person to write a story... it will come to an end soon when only 1 person is writing and the ink runs out..."

"Luv is like gardening... it needs care from time to time... the frequency depends on which type of flowers it blooms..."

Thoughts of the day

2005-07-27T01:29:00.000+08:00

"Tear of the clown - those who knows me, see my smiles... those who stand close, see my tears..."

lost abit... but gain so much

2005-07-26T01:12:00.000+08:00

finally when to visit my cousin since she discharged... on this trip, i brought some lemons for her to detoxic in the morning... oh ya, i heard dat every morning b4 u brush ur teeth... drink a cup of water mixed with a freshly-squezzed lemon can help to remove the toxic dat inside ur digestive system... maybe can try if u wan... well, i bought some to try myself too... keke... not only dat, i gave her a electrical massager dat i got from csc clubrm (well...i haf asked meitoon liao...keke..). when my cousin saw it, she will terribly thrilled... according to her, she has been sparing thoughts to buy one for herself for quite sometime. i haf not seen her so happy b4 since she received the news dat she contacted cancer... and the 11-day stay in the hospital has been quite depressing for her too... hopefully, this device will help to ease her pain and promotes her blood circulation...

not only dat... i became the centre of attraction of my niece and 2 nephews... oh yes, as their maths tutor too... keke... was quite surprised dat i can still remember the basic fundamental of bearings too (bearings are reported in 3-digit and we start from the northing of the reference to the destination, in a clockwise direction)... also, solved a primary 6 question... quite interesting and i shall share it here...

Qn: Wat is the average of 2,4,6, 8...1000?

i'm not sure dat my proposed method is the best and it still gives the actual answer... i guess i will have to pay more visits to them more often... especially the eldest one, she will be taking N lvl maths and O lvl maths this yr... from wat i can see, her std today can only pass N lvl but not likely to clear her O lvl...

another interesting event took place when i was playing with the 6 dogs in her house... my cousin's husband bought some chicken wings for us to share... suddenly, i kinda became the attention of the doggies too... -.- ok ok... it's the chicken wing dat i'm holding became their attention...happy? :P after i cleared the meat, i happily threw 2 bones onto the floor and the best 2 doggies get the bones... keke... got better understanding of "it's a doggy dog's world out dere." when i was abt to throw the 3rd piece... i was stopped by my cousin... she said, i got to remember which dog dat i fed juz now. or else next time... those doggies dat din receive any bone this time will be hostile or ignored me totally on my next visit... ops~! i neglected this pt and couldnt recall which 2 doggies got the 2 bones... jialat, this time chiam liao... i din know dat would happen... well... since my cousin knows them the best, i passed the remaining bones to her and let her do the feeding... it's was so heart-warming to see how all the dogs were so well-tamed and how they luv my cousin... i guess these doggies were my cousin's emotional estacsy ba... i nearly had an urge to keep a pet doggy also... their eyes... oh... can really soften my heart...

Voices from the cloud 3

2005-07-24T02:30:00.000+08:00

I have a broken heart,
with memories I cant never part...

I cannot fix this heart,
with a deep wound and so many cuts...

I fear to touch this heart,
without any guts...

So who will heal my heart,
i dun seem to have any luck...

- bryan lee, 24th july 2005

Thoughts of the day

2005-07-22T01:29:00.000+08:00

"A big tree or a garden of flowers" - bryan lee, 22 july 05

ha... anyone can try to see wat am i thinking tonite?? :)

mount faber...

2005-07-22T00:02:00.000+08:00

today, after 7 years, i went up to mount faber alone... it has changed so much, as compared with the 1st time i were dere when i was 8yo, on a jogging session with my uncle and auntie. even the view from the top has changed, more and more green patches been taken away to make rm for bricks and concretes... to me, the best timings to visit mount faber is between 6pm-8pm... at 6+pm, where the sun is slowly setting off, the view is coated with golden rays and u can get to see further than under a hot sun... at 7+pm, where the moon fully took over the sky, all the lights and lamps seem to be like shiny diamonds spread across our land... on a windy weather, mount faber is a very gd place to linger ard too, the sounds of the gentle wind smoothes the soul and mind...

however, it is the beauty of mount faber, magnifies the imperfection within me...yup, i felt alonely... it is the place where i left most of my sad memories and tears during my secondary sch period... it's been so long, so i guess no point to mention them in my blog, else will flood my whole blog... each time when i went up dere, the degree of sadness became more and more intense... it's not dat i cant forgive dat wat has happened to me, but it's mainly i cant forget them, my precious memories... maybe dat is why, i did not want to go up dere after so long... another likely reason is my pace in life doubles up when i entered poly, where my social life expands...

when i went up dere today, all my past memories rushes into my mind and nearly choked my senses... similiarly, my purpose to go up dere is to leave some memories but not to cry... it's not dat i dun wan to, it's i cant... after i sorted out my emotions, i stroll all the way without turning my head back at all... till next time, my dearest mount faber... hopefully, i wun go dere alone ever again so soon...

when i reached home, dinner was just ready. ha... perfect timing, as wat i thought... as i opened the rice cooker, the steam revealed the rice... i stood dere motionless for a few sec... i saw a pile of leftover rice stacked on top of the freshly cooked rice... a sad feeling creeps into my heart, as a smile appeared on my face and my eyes narrow in... it's been so long and far, yet so familiar to me... this is the feeling of home i thought... wat pinches my heart more is i missed both my grandmothers. coz only with them ard, i would get to see leftover rice being mixed with freshly steamed rice together in the rice cooker... poly, army and staying in hostel has taken this scene away from my life for so long... ha... yup, i can get moved by small things like this quite easily... if u ever catch me, stood motionless for a few sec... very likely, something muz haf reminded me of my past, dat i missed so much...

cs chalet...

2005-07-20T19:42:00.000+08:00

yo yoz... been quite a quite since i update my bloggy... coz been at cs camp chalet... the fun and warmth of cs events are never the least but this time round, i got some food poisoning as well... swayz... keke... likely to be yesterday's lunch dat i ate...

this time round, for da 1st time, i cooked chilli crab for my beloved oc of the camp. this is the 1st time dat anyone outside my family get to taste this dish of mine... i was glad dat they enjoyed it too. however, it's a pity dat, xiaoying, linus, lydia, shouhan, daniel, mervyn, lionel, dave, ying chao, ya li, xinyi, yihua & joy did not manage to turn up for our oc steamboat dinner... it's quite a surprise dat both grp 3 and 4 had a chalet next to us too, and it was quite a gd chance for me to know some of them too...

the next day was the councillor bbq, we ordered our food mostly from zhen fa, while we get other stuff from mervyn and grp3. dat nite, i made fried bee hoon and almond jelly for the councillors... to my disappointment, i think i lost my touch on the fried been hoon and it din turn out the best or even the average dat i can do... will go & train on it more... as for the almond jelly, was glad dat alot of ppl were fighting for it... after the bbq, i had a fun mahjong session, dat i nearly laughed until i cry... oh ya, careless me lost zip's key to his bicycle chain and got everyone to hunt for the key when we were checking out... will get him a new one asap...

will look onwards for an oc outing sometime within the next 2 weeks... :)

Fullmetal panic, the 2nd raid is out...

2005-07-17T18:37:00.000+08:00

finally, 1 of my favourite anime is released for fans to dl...keke...& it's none other than fullmetal panic, the 2nd raid... this is their 3rd season & according to Perry, this season is heading towards the serious & action-packed direction, like their 1st series. personally, i still prefer their fumoffu series, whereby i can laugh until dere is no 2mr...keke... fumoffu is indeed the funniest anime series dat i ever watch b4... however, i dun haf the complete series... think i missed 1-2 episodes in between...

currently, i am dling 2nd raid using bit torrent and the transfer rate is slow like snails...sian... 1 week!! so long!! sian...

Thoughts of the day...

2005-07-16T16:05:00.000+08:00

"A rose seems to be the most beautiful when rooted to the ground, than to be plucked out... Forcefully plucking it out, will only shorten the life of the rose and get ur hands cut by the thorns..." - bryan lee, 16th july 2005

"Men are like rubber bands - the harder you pull, the further they fly."

A song dat rings my heart...

2005-07-16T14:34:00.000+08:00

was watching Superstar juz now & found this nice song, which i find the lyrics fit in nicely to how i feel now... to my surprised, i actually haf this song but din treasure it so much as b4... it's so nice dat i made it my current blog song... here goes the lyrics...

歌曲名称：远走高飞
作词：蔡伯南　作曲：蔡伯南　编曲：王豫民

爱你错了吗　为什么会受到这么多惩罚　
他们说的话像针往心里扎
我心中的怕　不知该怎么做才可以放下
只不过想好好的爱一次啊

＃带我远走高飞　不去理会
这一个蜚短流长的世界佈满虚伪　
是你让我选择沉醉　繁星守候月不能睡
只因为爱上了夜的黑
带我远走高飞　一起去追
有一个叫做幸福的世界没有泪水　
我已经感觉到疲累　只想在你怀抱入睡
不在乎别人眼中是非

重新再出发　能不能让这天地不再吵杂
我的心里面安静得不像话
故事的真假　没有多余的力气去分辨他
只不过想好好的爱一次啊

Repeat ＃ twice

taken from: http://www.yemusic.com/showgeci.asp?Lyricid=17076DD75BDA

also, out of the blue... my brother asked me out for lunch near my neighbourhood. to my surprise, my 2nd uncle, 3rd uncle, 2 cousins and brother-in-law of my 1st uncle came too... i felt the warmth of kinship very much juz now, though it's juz a simple dinner... coz we juz meet up during special occasions only... they started their discussion abt local issues, but i din speak much, due to my deficiency in hokkien... so i kept quite quiet and still absorbing wat they were toking abt attentively... after all, my status and experience in life is the least among all of them. one thing for sure, both my cousins and my brother are very gd jokers... it was quite a heartful experience for me...

Thoughts of the day

2005-07-12T08:59:00.000+08:00

"Time can heal all wounds, but it can never heal the scars, except the day we are reduced to dust..." - bryan lee, 12th dec 2005

Say it isn't so...

2005-07-12T06:08:00.000+08:00

this song is 1 of my favourite songs, it expressed how i feel for quite a couple of times in my life... i found this song when i was looking for a suitable song for my 1st blog skin abt 8 months ago... when i heard this song for the 1st time, i din really catch my much of my attention... then after a couple of times later, slowly it was able to bring out the emotions out from me... also, the emotions get more and more intensed... later, i also found out dat the lyrics seems to be like a poem and was very impressed by the composer... in the end, i chose it as my 1st blog song...

if u wished to listen to this song, u can get it from : http://rip1furr.blogspot.com/

Say It Isn't So
Artist: Gareth Gates

Skies are dark it's time for rain
Final call you board the train
Heading for tomorrow
I wave goodbye to yesterday
Wipe the tears you hide your face
Blinded by the sorrow

How can I be smiling like before
When baby, you don't love me anymore

Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you changed your mind now
That I am only dreaming
That this is not goodbye
This is starting over
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so

Ten to five at least we tried
We're still alive but hope just died
As they close the door behind you
Whistle blows and tons of steel
Shake the ground beneath the wheels
As I wish I never found you

How can I be smiling when you're gone
Will I be strong enough to carry on

Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you changed your mind now
That I am only dreaming
That this is not goodbye
This is starting over
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so

Miles and miles to go before I can say,
Before I can lay my love for you to sleep
Oh, darling oh I got miles and miles to go
Before anyone will ever hear
Me laugh again

Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you changed your mind now
That I am only dreaming
That this is not goodbye
This is starting over
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so [2x]
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so

Taken from: http://www.lyricslyricsandlyrics.com/l/212976

Traumatizing...

2005-07-11T03:32:00.000+08:00

today after can project collection, i joined a few grp2 members to look for Perry at Toa Payoh. he was doing some sales of scented candles in conjuction as part of an event for his gen acts camp. the sales is to recover for the $70 camp fees (takai desu yo!) dat they each have to pay for the camp... therefore, going down to support him can as least lighten the camp fee for them. since friday, i was not been feeling well due to lack of sleep, while making an handicraft. yup...sometimes, i will make handicrafts and they are kinda like puzzles to me...it really feels very gd after u managed to make them out nicely...though there are many failures in between... i think my condition got much worst after staying at the extremely cold macdonald dere, while waiting for Perry to be ready for dinner. also, 1 of his fren joined us too (i think i was too tired to recall his name)... but i think i was rather rude and anti-social to him (ya..i know...i'm feeling quite bad...), becoz i was really not in gd conditions... in the end, i only ate half of the food dat i ordered, but drank quite alot of water...

after the dinner when Perry and his fren left, i remembered dat i need cotton wool for my handicraft. hence, i proposed to the rest to hunt it with me... in the process, i can feel the high tide within my bladder and i went to the nearest toilet i can find. while walking into the toilet, a man at abt late 30s caught my attention as he was standing still infront of the mirror. thru the mirror, i can see him smiling at me. as i din wear my specs, i looked at him a little longer, in case he happened to be 1 of my relatives... in the end, he is juz a stranger... so i ignored him and headed straight to the urinal. at the same time, the movement of dat man caught my attention... he went to the urinal on my left and i sensed something wrong is going to happen to me... yup, my hunch was right... dat man kept looking at my *u know where*, while i see some funny movements inside his urinal from my side view of my eye. my heart seems to beat faster and i was totally traumatized! seems dat i have drank too much water and regret it very much... every sec seems like ages to me... i can feel a few ppl done with their detoxication and left... i'm more worried dat only me and him will be left inside the toilet... i kept my head and eyes down all the time, while stealing some peeps to see what dat fellow is doing. yesh...his eyes were still on me with a cheeky smile and i can see the funny movements inside his urinal. then i noticed dat he was not peeing at all!! he kept his body very close to the urinal, revealing a small part of opening towards my side... i know dat he has bad motives on me, i felt sick even more and want to leave dat place very much... but my bladder juz have too much water to clear... finally at last, i was done... i quickly went to wash my hands and left the toilet like a bullet... i wanna go to find Perry but noticed his booth was too far away... in the end, i got lost in Toa Payoh central... after calming myself down and i tried to recall the landmarks dat i came across juz now... regreting for juz following the crowd earlier... at last, i saw watsons and rushed in to find the rest of grp2 members...wat a relief~! my alertness was activated to the max afterdat and nearly 4got abt my fever and cough... as soon as i managed to buy the cotton wool, we headed straight home... all the way, i kept looking ard, in case dat person turned out to be a stalker too... home seems to be the place i missed so much... phew~! sick~! sian~! traumatized~!

Thoughts of the day

2005-07-11T03:04:00.000+08:00

"Only wat we intend to do at present will surely affect our future, while not let our past affect our future..." - bryan lee, 11th july 2005

Voices from the cloud 2

2005-07-11T00:01:00.000+08:00

Gazing up the sky, i see a white cloud.

Reminds me of a story, that i want to say out loud.

Watching upon me everyday, from high up above.

Ensures my life, is filled with love.

Following me, where ever i run.

Protects me, from the harmful rays of the sun.

Bringing a rainbow, after every rain.

Beautifies my world, while easing my pain.

Asking my dearest one, will you be my white cloud??

- Bryan Lee, 11 July 2005

The smiling moon...

2005-07-10T22:41:00.000+08:00

for the past 2 nights, i always been seeing the moon dat seems to be form a smiling mouth... i can vividly remember the last time i saw it on my birthday last yr... it was the only birthday dat i spent it all by myself in recent yrs... i guess it is the most alonely one dat i ever spend in my life... becoz i was resting inside pgp to recover from ethelonter camp 2004... yup, i spent the whole day sleeping inside my rm and only woke up at nite... on my way back home, i gazed upon the moon & it was the 1st time i ever see the moon dat seems to be smiling at me... i thought to myself dat the moon knows it was my birthday and so it decided to give me a smile... when i reached home, no one in my family remembers it was my birthday at all. well... i was not surprise at all, coz no one in my family actually bothers abt birthday... sometimes my mother will mention something when my brother's birthday is near, my brother will remind me of my dad and mother birthday, my step-mother will surely celebrate my sister's birthday... as for mine, i am not sure... well... it never really bother me at all, after all i already received my birthday greetings from the moon already and it's the best birthday present i received too... :)

I would say my birthday this yr is one of the best after my 21st birthday... my 21st birthday was the best, nearly 100 of my frenz from secondary sch and poly(yup...frenz from all the clubs dat i joined except my 1st one) came for the BBQ dat i organised. my 22nd birthday were spent in outfield, everyone was too tired to bother. my 23rd birthday was spent during my army unit company celebration, my oc announced all the june babies in my company but 4got to list me out... as we were singing the birthday song to them, i was very depressed but yet have to act normally. some of the specs who know abt my birthday, actually came to ask me after the celebration. my response was to put it off with a smile and act normally. keke...the gd thing was my oc found it out later and asked my company 2ic to apologise to me, in return i got some leave out from it. well, this yr... i spent it inside the Ethelonter camp 2005...almost all the OCs came to sing me a birthday song and i get to eat a chocolate cake... dat's not all yet, they even prepared 105 water bombs to throw at me during sentosa day... keke... so if u ever think dat ur birthday is not spent gd enough, well...at least...hopefully it shouldnt be as bad as mine... :)

well... i guess only near june & july period, i can get to see the smiling moon again... seeing the smiling moon will remind me of this song below... pls enjoy... :) listening to this song has made my heart teared with smile on my face for quite a couple of times b4... a bitter-sweet song...

离人
歌手名称：林志炫词曲：作词:厉曼婷作曲:何家文编曲:林庭逸韩贤光

银色小船摇摇晃晃弯弯悬在绒绒的天上
你的心事三三俩俩蓝蓝停在我幽幽心上
你说情到深处人怎能不孤独爱到浓时就牵肠挂肚
我的行李孤孤单单散散惹惆怅离人放逐到边界
彷彿走入第五个季节昼夜乱了和谐潮氾任性涨退
字典里没有春天离人挥霍着眼泪回避还在眼前的离别
你不敢想明天我不肯说再见
有人说一次告别天上就会有颗星又熄灭

taken from : http://www.yemusic.com/showgeci.asp?Lyricid=A59F85FE61D3

Quantity vs Quality...

2005-07-09T01:07:00.000+08:00

today, i had a short conversation abt quantity vs quality with Perry, while on our way to meet the rest of the grp2 ppl. wow... was impressed by the great turnout of the freshies... 7/8, 1 strucked in nussu camp... well, dat's not the main pt, dat i wanna tok abt here...

this kinda reminded me of my past, when i was in my poly... i was a fren of the 4 of the major clubs in SP; CADC, CLS club, SPSU and CSSC... SAC, the building where housed these 4 clubs was filled with numerous amount of frenz... during my 1st yr, i sticked closely to CADC... till now, i would said most of my leadership skills were picked up from dere... then in my yr 2, thru the influences of some frenz, i joined the CLS club camp and easily became 1 of their MC... as soon as, the news of me being their MC spread... the distance between CADC & me widens... also, i created some doubts among some of CLS members, as i became their MC too easily within 1-2months being active and it was kinda of a torture for me. luckily, i was support by my own OG during the camp, Orion... after dat, my circle of fren within SAC din stop dere... i became as gd fren of SPSU and CSSC, thru tutoring 3 juniors of my course... and i hang ard with them quite often almost everyday... my remaining poly life were spent playing carrom after my lessons, then join them for dinner and back home to mirc with them again. thru joining so many clubs in poly, made me understand dat "in life, we can only have either quality and quantity, but never both.". even as a gd fren of SPSU, i can only stick closely with only a portion of their overall manpower, due to internal conflicts... as for CADC, i became a hi-bye fren to them... for CLS, my terms with them got very much better after i stepped out of the MC... till today, i still keep in touch with SPSU frenz but still our contact is slowly on the downstream...

i have been going for quantity over quality during then... as for now on, i will be going more for quality, this is the main reason why i sided totally towards CSC after attending CACS camp... only in CSC, i am able to find both quantity(just nice for me to handle) and quality friends... the whole club regards every members as its own family and the culture is very gd... everyone care and spare a thought for each other... i really felt the warmth and sense of belonging in CSC... people here do not backstrab and are quite honest with each other... yesh~! i am glad to be an Ethelonter...

i even told Perry dat over time... quantity friendships will be washed away from our thoughts and wat remains is juz hi-bye frenz... so quantity memories are too common to us and not able to engrave deep into our mind. as for quality friendships, due to the great amount of effort invested in to maintain it, it will stay in our thoughts longer and sink in deep into our heart...

the amount of attention and time of each person is limited, but the no. of parties to share is unlimited... we can only remember the people dat we gave in the most, longer over the common ones... whether the receiving party is appreciative and response back, dat will be another side of the story... also, over time... the amount of effort will accumulate and grow too... provided consistancy is dere...

Love Tuner...

2005-07-08T10:52:00.000+08:00

Was requested by Sujun (our csc publicity director and my capable APD for admin), to do a write up for our club magazine, Love Tuner. Lover Tuner, if you change the order of the letters abit, u will get the word, volunteer... creative right? well, it was orginated from our previous publicity director, Hanmao. oh yes...the write up is edited by Gen, 1 of the potatos in csc...think she has begin more like baked potato rice after staying in csc (another name: chinese speaking club). also, i agreed to peel prawn shells for her on our mass camp outing next wed...should i take on my mj secret character role to peel the prawn shells?? keke...

Here's my write up, pls enjoy...

If Romi, Thermos, Chara, Pathos, Zilos, Agapo, Symponia and Thysia, sounds familiar to you, then you must be a member of our Ethelontêr Camp 2005. 10 months of careful planning and 7 weeks of intensive trials, just for 5-day and 4-night of fun together. Witnessing numerous amount of smiling faces and shaking hands during the camp, made me felt that all the time, money, effort and sweat were really well paid off. As organizers, we have to ensure the flow of each program has to be carried out in harmony and well-delivered to our Ethelontêrs, we also have to listen and understand the thoughts and feelings of every Ethelontêrs. It is the great responsibilities given to us, which made us, feel our importance to this project.

Everyone carried a different set of objective to the camp. However, each and every one of them shared the common goal to have fun and create everlasting friendships. We were all brought together by fate, to undergo the same moments, eat the same food, have the same fun, share the same roof and care for each other during this 5-day and 4-night together. We were able to bring home lots of unforgettable memories that are worth to mark as highlights in our lives.

Success in our camp is not only about everything run smoothly and hiding all the internal conflicts away from our Ethelontêrs. A true success in our camp is to see all the smiling faces from all our Ethelontêrs. It is rather common to have people frowning during a camp, due to lack of understanding, tiredness, injury or illness. The most important thing is to get these Ethelontêrs happy by the end of the camp and beyond, by showing care and concern to everyone and especially to those, who were unwell. Prizes and goodies bags are just a small token of appreciation, but as time goes by material possessions will devalue. To me, beautiful memories last forever even till the day we part from the world. If you are one of those who holds these beautiful memories with you, then you will indeed be one of the true winners from our camp and even in your life. Hence, the best group in our camp is the group that would hold all of these valuable memories we made and be able to create more fond memories on their own after our camp. What our organising committee and councillors can do is to bring all Ethelontêrs to the main door to the path of friendship. Whether each group will be able to continue their journey together, only time will tell.

Lastly, I would like to thank CSC and all fellow Ethelontêrs for giving me a chance, to learn and make such valuable memories together with 141 people. Regardless which group we are all from, we all belongs to the family of Ethelontêrs 2005. I will definitely be back in CSC Ethelontêr Camp 2006, to take on a different role and forge new memories together with our family of Ethelontêrs 2006.

- Lee Seng Long, Bryan

Voices from the cloud...

2005-07-08T00:35:00.000+08:00

Sat alone on his chair,
with music playing in the air...
Quietly listening to his heart,
a sad feeling pierced, thru like a dart...

Painted a beautiful picture,
with no one he could feature...
Closed his eyes, to feel his mind,
still no one, he can perfectly find...

Composed a smoothing song,
with lyrics added, seems so wrong...
Free his thoughts, to seek his soul,
found it there, all alone and so cold...

- bryan lee, 8 july 2005

A nice swim...

2005-07-07T00:23:00.000+08:00

since yesterday, i went for grp6 (Agapo, their grp name. 1 of the 8 grps in Ethelonter camp 2005; Romi, Thermos, Chara, Pathos, Zilos, Agapo, Symponia & Thysia), as they invited the whole of grp9 (the central cell of the camp). since i went dere rather late, so i stayed over at their chalet and we have alot of fun making the silent heart-attack... keke...

then today, i went to enjoy the pool and jacuzzi dere... the dip was pretty stress-relieving and relaxing, though i went dere alone... after a while, came a grp of 4 kids (13yo, 11yo, 9yo and 6yo)... and i observed dat their slang was pretty foreign... from dere i deduced dat they shouldnt be local... din wanna spolit much of their fun, i tried to keep a safe distance from them...till i went into the jacuzzi... i was dere 1st and suddenly 1 of 1, they each jumped into the jucuzzi and splashed water on me. lol...for once, i thought i was being bullied by kids and din really wanna spolit their fun, i smiled back... least did i expect, it gave them the ok signal to splash more water on me... after a while, they started befriending me... keke... we started playing with the slide, doing some stunts inside the pool and exchanged information with each other... never did i expect dat i can actually make frenz with them...keke...they are Shaley, Shawey, Sharey (i hope i get the 3 sisters' names spelt correctly) & Jeremy... all are here for summer holiday for 2 months in sg... oh boy, the 3 sisters r pretty gd in water...they seems so natural and talented...maybe they can try going for synconised swimming next time... keke... i was ultimately impressed by all the stunts they can performed for me...

sadly, while playing with them...Jeremy had a fall and received a heavy impact on the back of his head... he cried all the way and seem unable to move at all... i was traumaized and told the sisters to send their cousin to their mum... even till he was delivered dere, he kept lying down... knowing dat he is in gd hands now, it was abt time for me to go... while informing dat i gonna make my leave, 1 of the sisters actually gave me a pitiful look on her face... i was glad dat 1 of them actually asked for my email addy too... keke... i guess they enjoyed playing with me...

after my shower, i went back to check on Jeremy and found dat him running ard happily... which lightened my mood abit... it's really quite an interesting experience for me i guess... keke... with my little friends...

My little sista...

2005-07-05T06:19:00.000+08:00

with only 1.12m tall and 5yo, she is like the little princess in our family and... wait~! seems dat i'm going the direction of writing a compo... lol... ok... no, i'm not going to do dat... i'll stick to my usual style...

ya...today, i'm going to tok abt my younger sista... i was kinda traumatized by the way, she woke me up today... whenever she saw me sleeping in my room, she will find her way to sleep beside me... today, she did her usual routine and kept calling out..."this is my "lao gong"(hubby)...". for a moment, i thought i was still dreaming, but after awhile...i knew i was not... i woke up and give her some informative talk. coz this could be the 1st step for brother complex to develope... this is not the 1st time dat such similiar incident took place...there was once she claimed dat she would want to marry me when she goes grow up... also, there were a few times, she planted several kisses on my cheeks while i was sleeping. ok...for the kissing part, i can regard as an expression on how she adores me. however, i still see a need to stop her. quite a few times, i tried to educate her dat siblings cant get married... but everytime, she would be shy and run away... i guess i'll wait till she get older, then tell her more... else, incest will occur...

as for my part, it's clear cut dat i only regard her as my own sista... keke... ok, lemme think on the bright side dat at least she is not doing dat to my dad and elder brother too... watching after her has indeed gave me some experience in parenting... lol...

at least, i am always the one she would look for whenever she feel sad... this kinda reminded me of a recent incident dat happened last friday... i was sleeping on my bed and i was bothered by her crying sound... as i would normally expect, she should have be beaten up by her mum again... out of my expectation, she tripped and fell onto me, while her cries grew louder... as duty of a brother, i got up and hugged her. after she quiet down, i found my leg was bleeding non-stop...guess she have cut me by chance... and not only dat...the impact of her fall, sprained my left leg and it is still in pain now... :(

Thoughts of the day

2005-07-04T06:47:00.000+08:00

All abt life...some chips of my thoughts...

"Our lives are made bitter, in order to appreciate the sweetness of life..."

"To compare is part of a human nature. Through comparing, we can tell the differences and make improvement for better of self..."

"If our lifespan is like a candle, it would shorten faster as we get agitated..."

"People who follow wherever the wind goes, will ultimately find themselves left on the ground like leaves..."

"It's impossible to treat everyone equally in this world. Just like ur fingers...they can never be all of the same length naturally..."

"When people make a mistake, the fool will only mock, while the wise learnt a lesson..."

"People are constantly moving on with their life, but how many realised that we are all moving either on the same spot or in circles..."

"Creativity always tell us to think out of the box, but many ended up thinking inside a bigger box..."

Made my choice...

2005-07-03T04:55:00.000+08:00

i guess i cant run away from my cousin visit for too long...today, my other cousin sms me and here it goes...

MingLi: "U coming to visit sis?"
Eclipse(after some thoughts): "2mr morning"
MingLi: "Oh can.. Up to u loh...Don't think she's discharged so fast..."
Eclipse: "How is her conditions and emotion?"
MingLi: "Still need to do op for her urinary passage. But still in pain. She's ok. Sad but ok."
Eclipse lost...and dun know how to reply...hence, the conversation ended...

actually, to visit her is quite an easy thing... but to see her hidding her pain, while keep smiling and joking is a painful thing. it's always part of her nature to do dat, coz she dun want us to worry abt her too much. i guess this runs in the family...i also inherited this behavior too... dat's y i can tell it... she is not juz a cousin to me, coz i always regard her as my elder sister... i hate the feeling when i feel like crying out, but i cant... my tears duct seems to have malfunctioned... all the sadness bottled up and trapped at my eyes... the pressure at the eyes was high and my mind felt heavy, as my visions turned foggy but still no tears... so many yrs have passed... i cant even forced a tear out, whenever i am depressed... not even at my maternal grandma's funeral 6 months ago or the ending day of csc camp... am i still human or juz a piece of flesh walking ard??

well, it's time for me to face it... hopefully, i will be able to see her happy from the bottom of her heart... so i have decided to bring mygameboy advance down to keep her busy, think she will enjoy it... heehee...

Thoughts of the day

2005-07-02T05:57:00.000+08:00

everyone needs to find some personal healing methods to heal their body, mind and soul. to be able to achieve it, u need to understand yourself first and convince ur mind, dat it will work.

healing methods used by others may not be workable for you.

if possible use personal healing methods dat are able to heal ur body, mind and soul (eg: sleep, shower and massage). avoid healing methods dat heal some at the expense of others (eg: eating non-stop).

Hi-low day...

2005-07-02T05:23:00.000+08:00

oh goosh...i was supposed to go down to visit my cousin today...but, as usual, i woke up late... in the end, my mum visited her on my behalf... immediately after i woke up, i called my mum to check on my cousin's condition. as i expected, sounds of tears and sorrow were heard...my cousin was unable to clear her urine and bowels, coz the tumor has enlarged and obstructed her intestines. So the doctors have actually added a urine bag from her liver, for her to clear her waste. i believe it is considered a blessing for me to miss the appointment, else i cant be able to give her the supports dat she needs... maybe i'll need to sort out my mood for 1-2 days, b4 i go down to visit her...

instead i went to down to cac bash to lighten my mood abit. yup...i was glad dat i went.., it gave me the chance to clear my mind for a while. i have to go coz i promised Perry to down and at the same time, enjoy the dance each group has prepared for us. maybe it's becoz i enjoy seeing mass dance since young...keke... Perry and i felt pity for a grp which is the best but in the end, they din get to win... for a moment after the bash, i was alone...and the thoughts of my cousin came back to me...i nearly wanna walk my way home from orchard, but ended up joining some of the csc 2005 grp 2 members for a bowling match... even though i was always 1 of the bottom few rank, it was still enjoyable for me... hey, u cant expect someone who has not play bowling for 11 yrs to do dat well... i am glad even when i'm blogging at this moment... though they din know of anything or do much for me... i was contented...

frenz, do not worry abt me...keke...i will be alright after a nap or a long walk...it works for me so far and it will continue working for me... also, thankz for all ur concerns...

"I may have a weak and feeble mind, but i have my strong thoughts and workable methods to lead my life." - bryan lee...

A bad news received...

2005-07-01T04:12:00.000+08:00

rite after i did my last 2 entries...my bro came into my room and told me dat my cousin is hospitalised. i was shocked and speechless... and wat shocked me even more was she was actually hospitalised 4 days ago...

my cousin was 10 years older than me and my mother regards her as a daughter of her own. maybe coz my mother does not have any daughters at all. therefore, to me, she is my eldest sister. i still can vividly remember the times when i stayed over at her place during my secondary sch holidays. she taught me how to play mahjong, many other poker card games and we would try our best to complete as many super intendo games as possible. she always praise me of my talent in playing super mario...keke...after i got into poly onwards, my contacts with her reduced...nevertheless, i would pay her a visit during my exam period to take a short break from my studies...she is quite a capable joker and never fails to crack me up...if u ever wonder how come i am so crappy, she is the mentor...she told me b4 dat, "no matter how u choose ur life, life still goes on. so why not choose a happy life..."

only last dec, when i 1st heard dat she contacted cancer... then the following day, my bro and i went to visit her. from her appearance and behavior, she tried to be calm and as normal as she can, but there are times where i caught her frowning and sweating non-stop. even at my maternal grandmother's funeral, she was still displaying the similar signs. to verify my doubts, i asked her whether she was in pain and she admited it. since young, she have been a smoker, refused to eat vegetables and have irregular sleeping habits. hence, after years of abusing her body, the tree of pain has finally fully-developed... the tree has even scattered little seeds of pain in most of my family members from my mother side, even i was not spared. though there r times, when i would fear to receive the news of losing her one day. i would recall wat she told me b4 and lead my life the way i want to be. i also strongly believe dat she would not want to see me in pain for her too. i should not be sad when i see her later...i must not... :)

New blog skin

2005-07-01T03:51:00.000+08:00

Finally after 6 months of viewing a baby blue and white blog skin, i have decided to change it to a black and dark theme. my favourite colors are actually blue, white and black, while my prefered colors are green, purple, orange and yellow. maybe next time, my later blog skins will be using my prefered colors.

my previous blog skin tells a sad story. it reflected a girl missing a boy, while holding on to a gem, as she cried. at the background, "Say it isnt so" by Gerath was being played. to me, this song depicts a great amount of hope for the lost lover to be back again. if you wanna see my 1st blog skin, it is still available at rip1furr.blogspot.com

currently, the new story of my new blog skin is still in the planning stage...will update u guys once i get it done...keke...btw, i still got a blog skin testing page at fallingfurr.blogspot.com

yup...if u r sharp enough, you should be able to tell why i name my blog sites as "falling", "fallen" & "RIP1". falling is the processing state, fallen is the end or current state, and rip1 means retired state. ha...i still got a couple of secrets left here and dere in my blog, see if u can catch them anot...happy hunting...keke...

sick but still dun feel sick...

2005-07-01T03:35:00.000+08:00

when i woke up this morning, i felt my head is spinning quite badly. my body dun seem to want to get up at all, no matter how long i slept...as far as i remember, my little sister, huihong came and slept beside me quite a couple of times. in the end, i found myself waking up at 4+pm. rite after my so-call-late lunch and updated my blog skin at 6+pm, i tuck myself into my bed again and slept all the way till 9+pm.

i know dat i dun feel well and i am also tired no matter how long i sleep. i do feel sick but still my mind is very clear. i get cold when i get direct wind contact from my fan and my body did not sweat at all. hence, i covered myself with my blanket to force out some sweat, but found myself unable to sleep now...it's already 4am on my clock and i'm still actively blogging...lol...

i believe the root of the problem lies with me caught in a small rain yesterday evening, while heading from YIH to EH. next, i headed back to csc clubrm and enjoyed the air-con to dry off my body. now i understand why my maternal grandmother will always force me to go to take a shower, whenever i got wet in a rain...

Thoughts of the day

2005-06-30T18:08:00.000+08:00

"Sweetness coz illness, while bitterness makes gd medicine" - a cab driver

csc camp and cac camp

2005-06-30T01:56:00.000+08:00

i had been going down to cac camp these 2 days, to visit my juniors. at the same time, i also observed how cac operates their camp. despite the fact dat both csc & cac were from the same origin, both camps haf actually evolved and held its unique features. i kinda sadden when i see most of the familiar faces dat i saw during my cacs camp, turning up more often in cac camp over csc camp. this reminded me, dat the manpower crisis csc faced when cacs club was divided into csc & cac. thankfully, csc always able to pull over the tide whenever manpower is limited. the most recent case was during the councillors recuitment for csc camp and we have to cut from 10 councillors to 9 each in 8 groups. while looking at cac camp, they managed to get about 17 councillors each in 6 groups. Not only dat, alot of cacs seniors turned up in cac camp but not for csc camp. as far as i can recall, about 10 of our club seniors visited us in csc camp. till now in cac camp, they got at least 20+ seniors went back.

even though csc camp has less manpower, the bonding between almost all councillors are gd. in other words, a high percentage of councillors knew each other by the time of the camp. as for cac side, alot of councillors do not even know much councillors as long as they are from another group. this kinda reminded me of quality over quantity. of coz, as a PD's view, it would be best to have both. till now, i still believe dat if you wan the campers to bond as a whole, the councillors will be able to work together as a whole first. the warmth between all councillors will be passed to each campers too.

the content in both camps have also evolved. cac still retained almost a high percentage of content from cacs camp, even though they added pool games this yr. as for csc side, last yr i proposed a cluedo night to replace, the drama-like and boring to guys, fright night. i took up the challenge to start a new cluedo style in csc camp and received many positive feedbacks from our campers. maybe becoz of this, i was appointed as the PD for this yr csc camp. this yr, i proposed mass games and couple nightwalk. fortunately, Lydia, ShouHan, Fred and Meitoon did quite a gd job as a whole, and our campers did enjoy both programs. as for cluedo, my successors, ShunDeng, Crystal and ZhenQin did me proud too. for the rest of the programs, they (Wan nee, Li Hui, Zhou Cheng, Xiao Ying, Denise, Yuncai, Derek, Daniel, Mervyn, Lionel, Linus and Shiying) all went on quite smoothly and accomplished the objectives set by my 2 assistants(Sujun & Ziping) and me.

a success in a camp, in not only abt everything run smoothly and totally abt hiding all the internal conflicts away from the campers. a true success in a camp is you get to see all the smiling faces from everyone who is involved in the camp. it is quite common to have ppl to frown during a camp, due to lack of understanding, injury or illness. the most important thing is we have to get these ppl happy by the end of the camp and even long after the camp, by showing care and concern to everyone and especially to those, who are unwell. prizes are a small token of appreciation to those who fight hard for it, but as time goes by materials will degrade and get thrown away. to me, beautiful memories last forever even till the day we part from the world. if you are one of those who holds these beautiful memories with you, then you will indeed be 1 of the true winners from our camp. hence, the best group in our camp, is the group dat would hold most of these valuable memories we made during our camp and able to create more fond memories on their own after our camp. eg like csc camp 2004 grp 5, till now they are still creating their own value memories with them. also, not to forgeting my cacs camp 2003 grp 4 too.

what our organising committee and councillors can do is to bring all everyone at the main door to the path of friendship. whether will each group able to continue their journey together, time will tell...

Zoi outing at last~!

2005-06-26T00:19:00.000+08:00

ha...when i woke up today, i happened to see 4 Zoians online. oh oh...careless me, zoi was my orientation group in csc camp 2004. hence, was trying my luck, i proposed a zoi outing to them. ironically, they were quite onz abt it & we ended up meeting up today...

wow...it's been 6 months since we haf a zoi outing and the feeling was quite gd, even though not many of us turned up. can see dat vivian was glad to see me and i believe she really regards me as her elder brother...

attendance:
grp3- vivian, ling fong, derek, yaohua & me...
frenz of grp3 - joy & charles...

Camp Aftermath Thoughts

2005-06-23T23:39:00.000+08:00

AHhhhhhh...finally, CSC camp was over...& recharged enough energy to do a post here...7 months of effort...6 weeks of intensive trials and preparation...juz for 5-day & 4-night of camp. this time round, i played the role of Project Director, the biggest shot in the camp. this role is indeed 1 of the biggest challenge dat i have ever taken up so far, in terms of sch activities... thru the camp, it's both mentally & physically taxing for me...to add on the burden, i suffered from some rashes, headache and fever during the camp. however, i still encourage myself and try not to show my weaker side to anyone in the camp. thru of the camp, i was glad to see alot of happy faces ard, dat was my "medicine" to ease my sufferings...

today, was our last OC meeting, i would say dat i was filled with alot of laughters and joy. it was 1 of the most enjoyable dat i ever attend. rite after the meeting, we all went to eat together and played some games together. by comparing my last CSC camp OC and this current batch, i would gladly say dat this batch of OC is much well bonded than the last...glad... :) as for next yr, i would want to be a Key Councillor to try a different role in CSC camp...

remoulding myself...

2005-05-09T01:47:00.000+08:00

haiz...i sighed, dat's rare. i'm supposed to be on my bed now but a terrible dream woke me up. i dreamt dat my pgp rm is calling for me and i actually woke up in my pgp rm in my dream. then i forced myself to sleep in my dream and ended up waking up in my house. yes...after staying in pgp for 1.5yrs, i haf finally moved back home. my rm now is in a mess, my bro's items trying their best to give way to mine. my new wardrode seems to be vomiting out all the things dat i wanted to put in. somehow i dun seem to fill into this rm now, maybe i'm too used to haf my very own rm for too long & will take awhile to customise.

final conclusion: both my bro & i haf too many things already.

the 4th wave of exams in nus was over 9days ago, as far as i can recall, i knew i made quite a couple of mistakes here and dere. hopefully, my lecturer would be lenient when it comes to my paper. time & time again, i'm reprimanding myself and asking where is the moltivation dat i used to haf back in my poly life. i guess i seriously need to do some soulsearching over the holidays. yr3 will be here soon & if i dun work hard, i would kinda waste my parents' money. my dad been hoping dat i could make it to honours, but i always give him a negative reply. actually, i know dat i can make it to honours and get a decent grade if i really put in the committment. however, i would often pamper myself too much and failed to work hard for it. my typical habit is to study for the paper just 1 day before my paper and surprisingly, i survived. i really haf to be harsh to myself from now on and not to take my studies too lightly in the future. whether will i be successful, time will tell...if my CAP pt really hit the ideal point dat i aim for, i may consider for honours.

as for social life, cca is now my priority. checking my hp now, u will only find almost all of the calls and sms are from my club members. as for non-club frenz, only Gavin...but he went back to Hong Kong last friday. i kinda felt something is amissing in my life after he was gone. like me, he also parks his msn online almost 24hrs around the clock. almost everyday, i would receive some funny sites from him thru msn. then he is also another active mapler, ever since mapleSEA is out. he has been giving alot of assistances in aquila(server name). despite the fact dat both of us majors chemistry, we hardly speak abt it...haha...maybe from next sem onwards, we will moltivate each other to work hard in our studies. i can tell dat his dream to make it to honour is far more stronger than me, guess we can help each other out in our yr3. i haf to admit he is my best buddy in my major & even in nus. coz we would often go out for dinner during weekends & sometimes go shopping for....FOOD!! keke...hopefully, he will get me something nice from HongKong 2 weeks later...the last holidays, he gave 2 biscuits & they were yummy....keke...i was touched coz i hardly get any gift from my frenz except for a few. zoom down to my inner thoughts, i do like gifts from my frenz. it is becoz this shows dat they did think of me. however, not too much gifts, else the special feeling will be faint over too many times. a very surprising thing is, both of us never shared any inner thoughts with each other b4...there are some things he wanna keep on on his own, likewise for me too. overall, it's enjoyable being with him even when we kept quiet doing nothing.

besides Gavin, 3 other gers are my special frenz in chemisty too. they are Esther Lim (surname is important, coz i know another Esther in chemistry too & she do read my blog also), Weitian & Lirong.

Esther is 1 of the rare few gers, dat i admire in my life. in fact, she is the ideal woman to be a mother...ooops! i think i will get blackmailed by my frenz after they read this (especially FREAK! - AK + D = *solve it urself*). yup, she is 1 of those who would give me gifts on special days. so far, she gave me 2 postcards with words each after 1 sch yr, 1 undersize T-shirt and a Taz-maniac tag (hmm...how she knows i like Taz long time ago) after her aus tour, 1 handmade chocolate dat melt my heart on this valentine & another chocolate after my polymer paper. in short to me, she cares for me most in nus...the best gift, i haf received in these recent yrs, is her handmade chocolate on Valentines' day. i didnt know she made it, becoz it looks so professionally done. when i ate them, on my goosh...the feeling was very nice, coz it's my favourite type of chocolate of all. the following day, after i asked where did she bought the chocolate from, she told me dat she made the chocolates, i really regret finishing the chocolate so soon and even threw away the cover....at least, i can still lick the cover to enjoy the last few traces of the chocolates....keke...okay, i'll stop here. i know i'm getting disgusting....keke...

Weitian is my all-time favourite lab partner, doing lab with her is fun... i will not touch on the fun part so much else i will get ignored by her from next yr onwards. both of us really are destinated to be lab partners becoz we both took the same set of chemistry modules and our practical sessions were in the same sequence during sem1 and dat's how we got to know each other. hence, in sem2 we purposely took up the same sequence together. to me, she is gd ger. however, sry to all the hungry wolves who are reading my blog now, she is taken. the only gift from her was a SMALL chocolate on this yr valentine. yup...i capped the word becoz it's for her to read...keke...

Lirong is often my target for suaning in chemistry. so far, she kenna quite a few patterns of my suaning already. i do enjoy suaning her becoz she dun seems to haf any temper and easy to get along with. i do get a sense of achievement when suaning her, becoz she is quite a hard to hit target, becoz of her size...lol... oops~! i think she is immuned to it already and storing my arrows, waiting for a perfect chance to shoot back to me. she got a laughter and smile, dat can make ppl feel at ease. dat's y she always get suan by me...

well, of coz...these 4 ppl do enrich and bring colours to my life in chemistry...well, today's entry is a totally different style from my previous entries, after feedback from some of my blog supporters. yup, i have to agree the me i wanna show in blog and the me in real life are totally 2 different ppl, but they are both inside of me...i am more serious in blog than in real life. in real life, i aim to brighten the world of others thru my rubbish jokes and teasing. as for blog, i wanna my supporters to feel and be touched...typical gemini & monkey, i guess...

Closed shave

2005-04-28T16:41:00.000+08:00

Woo...cleared 2 papers, 2 more to go...2 days are left also...

i was kinda unlucky this morning, the bus left rite at the moment i arrived at the terminal. hence, i decided to walk to my examination venue instead. as i reached the designated block and lvl, according to the slip of paper that i kept inside my wallet, i was greeted by a series of locked doors and could not find any Seminar Room 4(SR4) at all. my heart started to panic as i only got 10 minutes left before my paper commence. at this moment, my eyes are hunting for any familiar faces dat i can catch, while my hands are pressing on my hp to call any classmates in my directory. unfortunately, all efforts are useless. then i thought of the possibility dat i could haf got the venue wrong, hence i went to the nearest practical lab, to look for my favourite lab tech who always take good care of me during my last year lab sessions. to my further to disappointment, she is not ard and i seeked help from a lab tech who i never seen before. she was very helpful enough to let me access to the internet terminal inside her office. even though the login process is the same as usual, but it seems to be the longest as i know i am really runing out of time. i gave a breathe of relief when i verified dat i didnt made any mistakes in the venue. the kind lab tech proposed to seek assistance from the department of chemistry dat is just a lvl above the lab, so and we went. on our way, i thought she was really nice enough to escort me to the office, coz normally many ppl juz wun bother. okay...back to the story, i was very much at ease when the lady at the counter was aware of where the SR4 was and asked me to follow her. she ran out of the office to the nearest stairs and pointed at a small block right behind the office. for a moment, i felt dat i was like playing amazing race in nus, hunting my pit stop.

ending my conservation with her for a few words, i quickly ran to the small block and found alot of familiar faces inside....wat a relief...& guess wat...i saw my favourite lab tech inside too. being late for 5mins, i quickly settle down and setup my formation of notes and stationaries, while my eyes are locked on to the exam questions. the more i read the question, the more lost i became...my goodness the questions are quite open-ended and not a typical science paper at all. even for someone who studied polymer since 1998, this paper can be a killer too...i could not haf imagine how the rest of my classmates are able to do it also. seems dat my thoughts at dat moment have wandered off, i closed my eyes and drank some water to suppress the series of shocks i received since 15 minutes ago. well, i tried my best to produce as much logical explaination as possible to answer the questions. hopefully, it would turn out fine....

lesson learnt from today: if your exam venue is not any hall or LT, be dere at least 20-25mins before the paper.

Addicted to this song...

2005-04-28T00:17:00.000+08:00

童话
曲：光良词：光良

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忘了有多久再没听到你对我说你最爱的故事

我想了很久我开始慌了是不是我又做错了什么

你哭着对我说童话里都是骗人的我不可能是你的王子

也许你不会懂从你说爱我以后我的天空星星都亮了

我愿变成童话里你爱的那个天使张开双手变成翅膀守护你

你要相信相信我们会像童话故事里幸福和快乐是结局

我要变成童话里你爱的那个天使张开双手变成翅膀守护你

你要相信相信我们会像童话故事里幸福和快乐是结局

我会变成童话里你爱的那个天使张开双手变成翅膀守护你

你要相信相信我们会像童话故事里幸福和快乐是结局

一起写我们的结局

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Something sad...

2005-04-04T22:06:00.000+08:00

"Every night he could only use his tears to warm his face, his soul and his sorrows. Even heaven is making fun of him, dropping snowflakes onto his eyes, taking his last bit of warm away."

"Every night he slept with his lights on, as he has lost the light within his soul. Darkness engulfed his world, keeping him away from all his friends."

What is luv?

2005-04-04T14:35:00.000+08:00

Why do we always hurt the ones dat luv us the most?

Why do we always luv those dat will not luv us?

Why do we always neglect the luv dat we got, while going after luv dat we haf yet to obtain?

The luv u crave for, may not be the one dat u will get...

Luv is a blessing when it respond to you, but it can be a curse if it dont...

The one who falls in luv more, will get hurt more in the end...
The one who stays in a luv trap longer, will also get hurt more...
Cruelty is the only key out of a luv trap...

When luv is around, we failed to cherish. When luv is gone, we can only regret.

Ppl dun care how much you luv them, they are more concern with how much you make them feel.

The rite kind of luv given to us, is not for us to feel bad. It should make us feel good.

The person that you want, will lose its value when u got them.
The person that you need, will gain more value when u got them or lose them.
However, ppl are always willing to pay for more price for the person they want.

- Compilation of thoughts for luv...

Puzzles of the day

2005-04-02T00:33:00.000+08:00

Ha...din expect to post my 1st one here so soon...but anyway, i'll only post the question part 1st and at least 7 days later, i'll post the answer by editing this entry....

Given with 2 mosquitos coils, each can be burned for exactly for 1hr. how can you make used of both coils to burn exactly for:
Level 1: 90 minutes
Level 2: 45 minutes
Level 3: 75 minutes

Answers will be posted later...happy solving...

My puzzles & riddles

2005-04-02T00:14:00.000+08:00

till today, puzzles, tricks and riddles never fail to amaze me or to catch my attention. i guess it started when i was young, my mum introduced rubic cube to me. oh boy...my mum was really gd at solving it. i haf to admit till today i can only solve the 1st two layers of the cube but yet to solve for the 3rd layer. preharp i should spend some time solving it after my exams... :)

i can still remember the 1st puzzle dat i solved was the horse shoe metal entanglement, it was a toy dat belongs to my 3rd uncle from my mum side. then i started collecting puzzles and now, i kept most of them inside a wooden box and i named it, pandora box. :) coz it would never fail to create headaches to my frenz each time i opened it. as for those puzzles and riddles dat have no physical form, i kept them inside my brain. once in a while, i would extract them out to entertain my frenz...

today i had fun exchanging puzzles and riddles with my csc frenz at nus mac. it seem dat i should keep a copy of all of it dat i know in here. therefore, soon i'll post as many of them as i can remember in here under "Puzzle of the day" soon. of coz, the answers will be provided too...so meanwhile, stay tuned in here...

Thoughts of the day

2005-03-31T12:20:00.000+08:00

"An egg would not hatch without a hen sitting on it."

In general, this statement means no effort would have achieved without anyone putting work on it. Achievement & glory are like treasures hidden inside an egg, waiting for someone to sit on it and hatch it. also...of coz...do not sit on other ppl eggs too... :P

My HiME

2005-03-29T16:57:00.000+08:00

phew...sotong me...i thought i'm going to haf 2 tests 2morrow...but in the end, found out dat it's next week...hhaa...anyway, i already finish studying for dat test...guess i can relax abit next week...now i'm 1/2way thru my polymer test revision 2morrow...hee...

as i was studying...my player played a very nice anime song from My HiME (HIghly-advance Materializing Equipment), its only the fairy tale. This song is not the main theme song or the neding song, but it really sunk in deep into my heart...Here's the lyrics...

{--@--}

Its only the fairy tale

Who are those little girls in pain

just trapped in castle of dark side of moon
Twelve of them shining bright in vain

like flowers that blossom just once in years
They're dancing in the shadow like whispers of love

just dreaming of a place where they're free as dove
They've never been allowed to love in this cursed cage
It's only the fairy tale they believe

Performer: Miyamura Yuuko

Composer: Yuki Kajiura

{--@--}

this song started with a musical box intro together with a organ together. in between the song, a volin tune perfectly fits in too. i noticed dat i like sound produced by volin and sexaphone to some extend. although there are some gammer mistakes in the lyrics but overall still a nice song.

at first, i dont really understand the lyrics much until i watched more of the following episodes of the anime. This song describes 12 hime being granted with power to materalise elemental weapons and summon a monster, that is also called their "child". A curse is between placed on them to kill each other's "child" in order to gain more powers and to defeat a monster at the end. however, each time a "child" is kill, the hime will lose a person who is closest to her. that is why they are not allowed to love....

so far till episode 24, 8 "child"s were killed. in other words, only 4 hime were left standing...wat disappoint me most is....they made my favourite hime a lesbian~!~! @!$!@#$#$~!~! :( now, i pity Mai becoz she suffered the fate to witness 2 of her closest person disappear infront of her. yes...2 of them became the closest person of other 2 hime, dat was defeated. Cant wait to watch episode 25, dat i'm downloading now...