:: remoulding myself... ::

haiz...i sighed, dat's rare. i'm supposed to be on my bed now but a terrible dream woke me up. i dreamt dat my pgp rm is calling for me and i actually woke up in my pgp rm in my dream. then i forced myself to sleep in my dream and ended up waking up in my house. yes...after staying in pgp for 1.5yrs, i haf finally moved back home. my rm now is in a mess, my bro's items trying their best to give way to mine. my new wardrode seems to be vomiting out all the things dat i wanted to put in. somehow i dun seem to fill into this rm now, maybe i'm too used to haf my very own rm for too long & will take awhile to customise.

final conclusion: both my bro & i haf too many things already.

the 4th wave of exams in nus was over 9days ago, as far as i can recall, i knew i made quite a couple of mistakes here and dere. hopefully, my lecturer would be lenient when it comes to my paper. time & time again, i'm reprimanding myself and asking where is the moltivation dat i used to haf back in my poly life. i guess i seriously need to do some soulsearching over the holidays. yr3 will be here soon & if i dun work hard, i would kinda waste my parents' money. my dad been hoping dat i could make it to honours, but i always give him a negative reply. actually, i know dat i can make it to honours and get a decent grade if i really put in the committment. however, i would often pamper myself too much and failed to work hard for it. my typical habit is to study for the paper just 1 day before my paper and surprisingly, i survived. i really haf to be harsh to myself from now on and not to take my studies too lightly in the future. whether will i be successful, time will tell...if my CAP pt really hit the ideal point dat i aim for, i may consider for honours.

as for social life, cca is now my priority. checking my hp now, u will only find almost all of the calls and sms are from my club members. as for non-club frenz, only Gavin...but he went back to Hong Kong last friday. i kinda felt something is amissing in my life after he was gone. like me, he also parks his msn online almost 24hrs around the clock. almost everyday, i would receive some funny sites from him thru msn. then he is also another active mapler, ever since mapleSEA is out. he has been giving alot of assistances in aquila(server name). despite the fact dat both of us majors chemistry, we hardly speak abt it...haha...maybe from next sem onwards, we will moltivate each other to work hard in our studies. i can tell dat his dream to make it to honour is far more stronger than me, guess we can help each other out in our yr3. i haf to admit he is my best buddy in my major & even in nus. coz we would often go out for dinner during weekends & sometimes go shopping for....FOOD!! keke...hopefully, he will get me something nice from HongKong 2 weeks later...the last holidays, he gave 2 biscuits & they were yummy....keke...i was touched coz i hardly get any gift from my frenz except for a few. zoom down to my inner thoughts, i do like gifts from my frenz. it is becoz this shows dat they did think of me. however, not too much gifts, else the special feeling will be faint over too many times. a very surprising thing is, both of us never shared any inner thoughts with each other b4...there are some things he wanna keep on on his own, likewise for me too. overall, it's enjoyable being with him even when we kept quiet doing nothing.

besides Gavin, 3 other gers are my special frenz in chemisty too. they are Esther Lim (surname is important, coz i know another Esther in chemistry too & she do read my blog also), Weitian & Lirong.

Esther is 1 of the rare few gers, dat i admire in my life. in fact, she is the ideal woman to be a mother...ooops! i think i will get blackmailed by my frenz after they read this (especially FREAK! - AK + D = *solve it urself*). yup, she is 1 of those who would give me gifts on special days. so far, she gave me 2 postcards with words each after 1 sch yr, 1 undersize T-shirt and a Taz-maniac tag (hmm...how she knows i like Taz long time ago) after her aus tour, 1 handmade chocolate dat melt my heart on this valentine & another chocolate after my polymer paper. in short to me, she cares for me most in nus...the best gift, i haf received in these recent yrs, is her handmade chocolate on Valentines' day. i didnt know she made it, becoz it looks so professionally done. when i ate them, on my goosh...the feeling was very nice, coz it's my favourite type of chocolate of all. the following day, after i asked where did she bought the chocolate from, she told me dat she made the chocolates, i really regret finishing the chocolate so soon and even threw away the cover....at least, i can still lick the cover to enjoy the last few traces of the chocolates....keke...okay, i'll stop here. i know i'm getting disgusting....keke...

Weitian is my all-time favourite lab partner, doing lab with her is fun... i will not touch on the fun part so much else i will get ignored by her from next yr onwards. both of us really are destinated to be lab partners becoz we both took the same set of chemistry modules and our practical sessions were in the same sequence during sem1 and dat's how we got to know each other. hence, in sem2 we purposely took up the same sequence together. to me, she is gd ger. however, sry to all the hungry wolves who are reading my blog now, she is taken. the only gift from her was a SMALL chocolate on this yr valentine. yup...i capped the word becoz it's for her to read...keke...

Lirong is often my target for suaning in chemistry. so far, she kenna quite a few patterns of my suaning already. i do enjoy suaning her becoz she dun seems to haf any temper and easy to get along with. i do get a sense of achievement when suaning her, becoz she is quite a hard to hit target, becoz of her size...lol... oops~! i think she is immuned to it already and storing my arrows, waiting for a perfect chance to shoot back to me. she got a laughter and smile, dat can make ppl feel at ease. dat's y she always get suan by me...

well, of coz...these 4 ppl do enrich and bring colours to my life in chemistry...well, today's entry is a totally different style from my previous entries, after feedback from some of my blog supporters. yup, i have to agree the me i wanna show in blog and the me in real life are totally 2 different ppl, but they are both inside of me...i am more serious in blog than in real life. in real life, i aim to brighten the world of others thru my rubbish jokes and teasing. as for blog, i wanna my supporters to feel and be touched...typical gemini & monkey, i guess...

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