:: BL1001 - understanding BL... ::

today is the day where actually give some time juz for myself only... all the while, i'm been observing people and things ard me more, rather than sparing some thoughts over my actions and intention... i guess it's part of human nature to see far and think far. after all, we are brought up this way... humans haf been chasing things dat they desires, over things dat they already haf and near...
"If you look at what you do not have in life, you don't have anything.
If you look at what you have in life, you have everything." - from an email...

my thoughts abt humans are like a plate of "char kway tao", unevenly mixed and in a mess... however, it taste good, dun it... keke...

when i was heading home from cs clubrm, i planned out 2 routes in mind... 1st option, is to walk some distance to take 963 or 97 to harbourfront and walk home from dere. 2nd was to walk to KR hall bus stop and take 143, all the way back to home. haf u all noticed something? well, both routes dat i planned out does not need to transit to another bus at all... eg for route 1, i could have taken a bus from harbourfront to home. as for route 2, i could have taken internal nus bus to kr or pgp to catch 143. this allowed me to understand my nature abit better, when i'm alone...(pls note: alone...as i will generate another set of thinking with peers ard).

wat i expand further from my thoughts and actions were... i'm a person who dun like to stay at 1 point waiting alone... i prefer to be on my move or moving while waiting, eh... i think waiting is not a gd choice of word here, anticipating or expecting should be more appropriate... i remembered Yih Hong once told me in nov 2004, dat his lecturer mentioned dat a person can never be waiting and moving at the same time. waiting requires the person to stay at the same point. ha... quite true to me, so i changed my choice of word to anticipate or expect... y i chose expect? eg a father-to-be will be outside the operation room expecting his child-to-be to be borned... so he will always be moving to-and-fro outside the room... so isnt he is moving and expecting at the same time? ok ok... i know this is quite out of the topic, but find it interesting to share here... coz i'm crapping and wasting some of ur time again... keke...

back again, this preference of mine... allows me to zoom down to wat will i get from waiting vs moving while expecting...

1) waiting
- my body can get to rest or less tiring for my legs, unless i'm standing...
- wat i get to see is limited to wat comes near me and around a limited area surround the bus stop.

2) moving while expecting
- my body can get a light workout... burn some fats... keke...
- my area of exposure is greatly expanded and i can roam ard more freedom... everything along the way is more controlled by me, over worrying the bus will just zoom away...
- the only problems imposed will be the barriers dat hinder my path and the time limit (if any) i have to arrive at my next destination.

so by default, i would choose 2 over 1 and it's already programmed into my brain... hence, i would take out 1 juz now. wat i believe in and trying to demostrate here is... every actions done by a human except for love, has his/her reasons. if u r unable to decode the reasons for ur actions, very likely u either failed to read deep into ur mind or u dun understand urself well enough (of coz, for simplicity sake, i only list these 2 currently)... soul-searching with a clear mind, is a gd way to understand urself better... :)

to end, my final choice was to take route 2, as i target myself to reach home by 6:30pm to continue something dat i left pending b4 i left clubrm... when i chose this option becoz the path for me to walk is much shorter and time consumption is less too. eventually, i did reach home at 6:29pm and head straight to my PC... to slight disappointment, i didnt get a chance to carry on with my plan... dat's life i guess... :)

PS: all the facts dat i mentioned above is juz a summary and less formal & descriptive... but if u r interested to discuss with me... u r always free to contact me... :) overall, it's only a blog entry but not a report or thesis...

+ BL updated @ 6:37 PM

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